首先当然恭喜李宗伟成为全英王咯！大家总算盼望到今天了，我一直相信只要不放弃，总会有成功的一天！从2003年第一局就遭受淘汰，一直走到今天的全英百届王，泪水和汗水是无法衡量的。他永远是我的英雄！其实一直都没办法真的看他打球，这里没有直播，就只能看livescore。可是时差的关系在加上最近忙碌的自己，真的撑不了。上课加上工作，真的很累人！现在整个人真的是紧绷了，好想大哭发泄发泄呢！

Could you save me? I'm stuck in here... Whatever i can do was just stay here and keep working hard! It's tiring... Really tiring! Well, the hero is back home, you are back home, everyone is back at home, when is my turn? Whatever it is, I really need a break, but I can't afford my life! So what can i do? Just gonna bare with it.

Well... Just ignore me anyway, just trying to relieve some stress. No matter how much laughter it doesn't really works to cheer me up. Just wish to drop down on the bed and sleep for a week! But honestly, I really wanna go home, at least to a place that I could have a rest and keep assignment and work away!

You won't know how it feels like when everyone arounds you get the chance to go back and you are there waiting for a unknown holiday. It's not the matter how life is over here, it is just that you really wanna go home for that shelter that you could actually forget about everything and have a good rest and some good food instead of the chicken!!!

Anyway, I'll be fine again tomorrow, that's me! Life is always tiring and that is what it should be. Nothing much you could do but keep yourself strong all the time, I know I can! No matter what, just hold on tight, there is always someone that inspire me to hang on for another moment!

Hmm…发觉自己不再有那么多的时间写下自己心里头的感觉了，不知不觉，在这里也接近半年了，真是光阴似剑，时光如梭…现在进入了工作和读书并和的时候，老实说真的不容易，可是我知道自己会坚持，因为这条路是我选的，也清楚自己想要的是什么。

还有个星期我就在这里半年了，其实在这段时间里我都不曾真的放假，半年里头就只有2个星期吧！所以有时候觉得好累，即使是来临有两个星期的放假，但是还是想努力工作赚钱。其实我喜欢也享受这份工作，看见老人家们过得开心，自己也会很安慰。有时候看见他们那样子，也会心疼。

其实真的好想家哦！当大家都聚在一起但却少了我时，真的好难过。在这么遥远的我，却不能在当下和你们分享喜悦。听见朋友们来来回回的回了家几趟，真的不禁在想，何时才轮到我。二月份要结束了，表示我还有大约9个月的时间应该就有机会回家了。所以我誓言要好好赚钱，以自己的能力付生活费，自己买机票回家，花自己的钱。爸妈为我付出的真的很多了，我今年也真的18了，该靠自己了吧！想好好报答他们，用自己的能力让他们来澳洲旅行。

其实如果没有家人，好多难关我真的不晓得自己能否熬下去，我只能说是眼泪伴随我成长。当我发现自己不再有那么多依靠时，真的一夜间成长了，很多事情即使是不晓得也要放2百个心跳去尝试。

我很庆幸自己今天能走到这里，如果当初的我没有坚持，今天的我或许还没成长，或许真的后悔了。

Hey, Happy Chinese New Year guys... Well, I'm somewhere else for Chinese New Year this year, didn't manage to go back to my hometown. For the first time, things was so different. Seriously, I have the feeling of being left out by everyone back there, i couldn't share the joy and the moment you guys have there.

I tried... Try to catch up with things, but it's just impossible. I understand things, and yeah, that's fine. Seriously, can't believe that i was here for nearly half a year already. Someone said that nothing is impossible with determination, if there's dedication, I could accomplish anything. At least this give me some motivation.

Have been really tiring these days, didn't manage to sleep well. I think i need a rest, but there's still way to go before I could actually rest. Too much things to worry, stress+ tension= tears
Pillow gonna wet again tonight=.=

Things gonna start all over again, in a brand new environment! I'm looking forward for that but really need to cope well with it. Well, at least i accomplish one of my other mission again this time. Just gonna hold on tight and get through it!

It's a long way to go again before i could go home. Apparently, another 10 months to go. And yet, i don't even know when is the date. Just realize that if you have faith on things, it's gonna come true. Pray hard, try your best and you'll be alright. Don't blame anything, go on with your life no matter how it is. Hmm... I really hope someone will bring me home>.<

我也很长一段时间没有用华文写部落格了，突然有种冲动想要写下目前的心情。感觉华文退步了好多…不晓得怎么了，可是最近的我好累，心情都蛮低落，也好想回家。有些事情，当自己拥有时，总不晓得他有多珍贵，失去时才懂得他的重要性。

不晓得怎么说，人类就老是爱把事情复杂化，所以人生才那么累人。在短短的时间内，真的能够发生很多事情。所以我常说，无论你有多坚强，还是会有用完的一天。面对需要勇气，逃避总是解决不了事情。

以前的我，很想要自由，现在的我有了自由，但我很想家。人永远都在追求不同的东西，其实知足才能活得更轻松开心。当然，目标不能少，只是必须懂得满足。我知道自己想太多，顾虑太多，所以压力总是很大。也知道妈妈不停的担心总是把自己逼得很紧的我，担心压力会影响我的健康。对不起，总是让你们担心！有时很努力的忍着，可是眼泪还是掉了下来。身旁的人不停的询问我几时回家，当下的我真的都在想，大家都回去了，何时才到我？也许过去的我不曾对爸妈说过我爱你们，可是来了这里，发觉自己长大了，发现很多自己不曾察觉的事，家人永远都排第一！

无论发生什么事，日子还是要过，唯有往前看…可是我好像还有着重量的包袱！

P/s:恭喜李宗伟二连冠，三连霸！贡献古陈获得今年首个冠军！我错过了好多...

I’m back! Well… I’m sorry for not updating my blog. I’ve abandoned it for quite a while. This is my 200th post, at last i reach 200, such a long way!Just too much things happened recently, don’t really have the time to write something. I’m just gotta briefly describe how is it.

22Dec09
It’s the day to eat glutinous rice ball, it seems like impossible to get it in Adelaide. But really thanks to Caroline, Debrah and Li Qun for putting the effort to make it on their own. It’s special when you get to eat something that was way back from home. That’s really nice^^
24Dec09
Merry Christmas! It should be Christmas Eve, but Australian celebrates Christmas on this day. I don’t really celebrate Christmas way back at home but I love the feeling of Christmas. Hmm… We have Christmas dinner at Hosanna, lot’s yummy stuff to eat. It’s the carolling session after the dinner. Everyone enjoy the night very much!

31Dec09
It’s the last day of 2009, can’t really believe that. When I look back for the year of 2009, the most memorable moment was when I’m working in Japan Boat for about 7 months. Hey, I love you guys so much! That will be the moment that I wouldn’t want to forget in my life time. I do enjoy the time there! I’m glad to know you guys and always keep in touch now and then.
Besides that, I spent the other time with my family in KK, Penang and KL. While the rest was my life in Aussie. Nothing much that could describe in words, but I know it’s the beginning and the turning point of my life.

I join the countdown with the rest of my friend that day, there’s 10++ of us. It is my first new year in Adelaide, I have all sort kind of feelings. Miss home, excited for a new year, looking forward for another threshold and etc. It’s kind of weird actually, keep on questioning myself how nice if I’m with my family.

I have to admit, I never thought I’ll miss home that much before I was here. It takes time to realise how much does your family means to you. No matter what happened they will always at your back and never let you down. I love you guys!

1Jan10
I got a new room for myself, I think it will be better in this way. No carpet so that it won’t cause much allergy problems for me. It’s alright even though there’s no sink, I got a bigger space, and double bed.
14Jan10
I went for Ice Skating with Caroline, Debrah and Li Qun. I really have fun on that. It’s been quite a long time since I really have fun, from the inner of my heart. Jie jie, now I get what you mean that you think ice skating was fun. If there’s a chance, I hope that the 4 of us will go back there again.


Basically, most of the time I was just doing assignment, watch movie, and go to city or library. I have to practice healthy lifestyle now. Need to go for a walk in the park early in the morning once in a while, sleep and wake up early! I have no idea how much movie I have watch, about 4-5 in a week, can’t really remember what I’ve watch. But I’m in love with Nicholas Sparks, his novels was remarkable. I’ve watch The Notebook, Nights in Rodanthe and A Walk to Remember. All of that make me cry.

I’ve been watching some movie that was to with dancing lately, it really makes me miss dancing! Dancing used to be the way that I could express myself and relieve stress. I really miss those moments that I could dance freely on the stage… Well, I don’t think I have the chance anymore. Just got to enjoy the show.

Hmm… Nothing is impossible, it’s really true! Just want to concentrate on study now, and pray hard that I could get a job as soon as possible. Joining D12 tomorrow, I hope that everything will be fine.

13Dec09

Hehe… It’s Sunday and I’m not really sure what I’ve done for that day. Most probably sleeping until 12pm and go down for lunch. What I really remember was nice chicken for lunch! That’s one of my favourite chickens in Hosanna.

I couldn’t sleep on that night, seriously don’t know why. Sitting at the staircase 3am in the morning hugging my pillow and listen to music through my headset. I know it looks emo, and I shock someone else. Don’t worry, I’m alright, just thinking that the wind that blows makes me feel better. Someone ask me whether I cry, no I didn’t. I’m just looking for a space for myself and enjoying the silence of night. I like to stare on the darkness and let my mind to be blank. Pop myself on the bed at 5am in the morning. Anyway, thanks for your concern, I’m really alright.

14Dec09

Its Ahm’s farewell that night, both me and Geraldine went out with Esther and Susan as they want to print some photo. We have Hungry Jack’s for dinner and went back at about 7.30pm. We started to work on the scrap book which is Ahm’s present until 10 something and join in the party.

There are really lots of people, almost everyone in Hosanna was there. Get to drink 2 bottles of beer, it taste nicer than the one we have in Malaysia, not bitter but sweet. Hmm… I guess everyone will miss Ahm, he’s really a nice guy! Thank you for everyone who sings the Happy Birthday song for me on the night.

15Dec09

Happy Birthday to myself! Just couldn’t believe that I’m 18, which is legal as an adult. Thank you for daddy and mommy for sending me the greeting cards through email. Thanks for wishing me through sms. Thanks brother for still remembering my birthday even though you are really busy. Thank you for everyone who purposely message me way back from Malaysia and all the wishes on facebook. It takes me few hours to reply everything!

Thank you for the presents from Geraldine, Kong, Helen, Betty, Chua, Esther and Susan. Everything was lovely!

Wake up at 9 something in the morning and headed to City Cross with Geraldine, Esther and Susan for photo printing again. I have Subway as my birthday meal. We manage to finish the scrap book in the library. Joko and Yutaka join us to take bus over to the airport.

There are almost 20 of us sending Ahm off at airport, Adelaide airport was really nice as you can actually go into the departure hall.

Me and Geraldine escape from the group after that, we have Hungry Jack’s again for my birthday dinner. Manage to get back at Hosanna at 7 something. It’s a special birthday that I’m not celebrating with everyone way back at Malaysia.

16Dec09

I’m not really sure what I’ve done for this day, probably sleep again??? I haven’t been joining everyone for lunch and dinner throughout this 2 weeks holiday. Somehow, I’m not in the mood to talk crap and laugh for something I don’t understand or not funny at all. Just want to have a rest and have my own life for this period.

Call back to home and talk for about an hour with mommy, jie jie and koko^^ I miss you guys!

17Dec09

I plan to go to the temple and Geraldine decided to accompany me since I have no idea where it is. It wasn’t hard to find but we have got the wrong way since the beginning. Anyway, we manage to find the way. The Buddhist temple wasn’t like what I expected, it’s very different from the one we have in Malaysia. This is just very simple and own by Thailand people. The monk wasn’t there on that day.

Meet up with Chua after we went back to city to have lunch. We meet up at China Town. I tried the beef noodle over there since everyone said it was really nice. It was still alright for me.

We went to library after that. I manage to renew my card and borrow another pile of DVD^^

18Dec09

We took the 11 something bus to the library as the two of us doesn’t want to wake up in the morning. Stay in the library for a few hours until 4 something in the afternoon. Geraldine went back earlier as the office call and asks her to settle some stuff.

Both of us have a nap after that, but ended up waking up at 8 something in the night. After bath and dinner, we started our movies marathon. We have a crazy thought to watch movies till 6 in the morning. Manage to pop ourselves in the bed at 6.30am.Seems like we didn’t sleep the whole night! Haha^^

19Dec09

I wake up at about 2.30pm and have my lunch at 3pm. I’ve been working hard on editing photos and typing blog the whole day. Hehe… There’s too much for me to write from the 3 weeks placement until today. But I need to do this as my course will commence on Monday. I don’t think I will have enough time to do this when dealing with lots of assignments.

Anyway, I’m so obsess with the sky. People who know me well will surely know that I love the sky! Here are some of them photos!