I've been praying hard that time will flies, and just get me through everything, take me back to where I wanted to be. And it's coming true, I have another 5 shift to go, 40 hours, and I'll be back in Adelaide in 8 days=D Geez, we've manage to finish up a 6 weeks placement only in about 5 weeks, or probably less than that. I thought things will go on smoothly, but it seems like my body doesn't want to be compliant with it.

Well, I'm having a lazy life now. Basically, I'm just having placement and sleep for the rest of the time. I've seriously been sleeping in, waking up late and even missed my dinner. I'll try to eat more, but at the moment I could still afford losing a few kilos as I've gain probably 2-3 kilos here. I'm trying to eat more but I just lost my appetite.

Oh hey! It's gonna be the 14th April soon. That is the first day that I'm in Wudinna. Other than that, it still means heaps a lot to me=) Time flies, up till now I still can't believe what just happened! Life is not easy, but we need faith to go on. I'm gaining it step by step, and I hope that I'm not wrong this time.

I think it wasn't too bad trying to settling in a new place, but right at the moment, I miss Adelaide a lot. I love Adelaide. It's not that I don't miss home, I miss home as I miss the people and especially my family. But Adelaide is certainly a great place to live on. I currently have great friends, great workplace, great colleagues and important people with me here. One of my big wish was actually trying to get my family here, I hope that they would love it too=D

It seems like a lot of thought just came up to my mind right before bed time. And right now, I'm holding my phone and trying to type out what it is all about. At some point, I thought that things would remain the same as they always do. But apparently, this ain't a fairy tale.No one would remain static at the same point, somehow life would have to go on no matter what. I have no idea what it is sticking in my mind now, but it absolutely has been haunting me badly.

The only thing that I knew was that I feel like a crap at the moment. Which I seriously need someone to be here with me. And all of that impossible make things hard. Once upon a time, I always think that there would only be people walking away from me in my life, and I'll be staying there figuring out why. And right at the moment, I'm thinking if it would be me someday. Nothing is impossible, things often comes true if it is on your mind. I wonder why did that came up on my mind as I am not someone that would simply give up something and be the one who turn around and walk away just like that.

There is a saying that, don't make a decision when you are truly mad, because it often turns out to be a regret. In my case, I guess it should be never make a decision when I'm tired or feeling down, as I don't even understand how does all this insane thought came up. Time flies! The most important thing is, I hate staying in the same place as no one would ever wait for you. There are moments where you think why did people wanted to give up after holding on for so long. And bare in mind, what makes you holding on for so long? Does it worth giving up after that much of effort?

You might think that what do I actually understand about life? I might be a lil' kids in your sight, but I've seen and gain a lot from some of my experience. Which I think sometimes I sound like a philosopher rather than a nurse. Whatever it is, I feel funny, and I seems insane tonight. I don't wanna walk away, but I feel really bad right at the moment. I wish you could understand that.

I'm tired, really tiring after all. I've been in this place for 3 weeks. It wasn't very long though.. But time flies, it's hard to get through but it seems to go faster than we thought! And right at the moment, I'm feeling kind of weird. I'm not only tired physically but mentally and emotionally.

I guess I'm tired physically at the moment as I haven't been sleeping well for the past few nights. But in mentally and emotionally, I guess I've been worrying too much on the upcoming things. Which I think I should have some advance planning, I wanted to have things in place and stop worrying about it. 

You probably won't understand how important is some of the things that I'm holding on now. Which I don't want to and can't afford to lose it. What can I say and how should I explain that? Everything comes to me at once, I've got everything I want but it's not going to stay there forever. I need to work extremely hard to get there. I wonder how many of you actually saw the moments where I struggle on my own. Which I eventually still thinks that I'm not working hard enough yet. You might think that I'm insane! I agree with that. I think I'm insane to a certain point where I couldn't believe I could do 3 night shifts in a row with classes during the day.

I studied hard, work hard no matter in job or assignment just to give it the best I could. It's all because I want to leave no regrets. I wish there is someone who will tell me, don't worry you'll be fine, nothing will change, you won't lose anything.

I love this place, I love this work and there's people that means a lot to me. Nothing seems to be perfect, so what should I do?

Hey, I'm currently in Wudinna, well... In fact, I'm here for nearly 3 weeks already. I guess we settled down quite well, and picking up the routine as time goes by! Hmm, can't deny that I miss Adelaide, but I had heaps of fun in this new place. I'm so sorry that it takes so long to update you guys. Wudinna is a really small town which has about 500+ of population but they're extremely nice! They made us a foreigner felt the warmth of being home. I wanted to go back to Adelaide in the first place, but I fell in love with this place. It is quiet, peaceful and as I said, you could find the simplest form of happiness here=) I guess I'll love the work here, no time frame and enjoying the time with the residents by providing a proper care. The residents were lovely too. Eventhough there is not much happening stuff in this small town, but there's is some interesting case too=) Since it's a quiet place, I guess both me and Debrah spend most of our time in the kitchen other than hospital, on the bed and on the phone. We're feeding ourself fairly good at the moment, we can see signs of putting on weight already. We can't believe that we were actually invited to attend the hospital fundraising ball. We didn't want to attend that at first as we have got no proper clothes. We didn't expect to attend such a function during our placement. But we ended up having nurses trying to organise dress and shoes for us so that we'll look good at the ball=D How sweet is that! I felt that I looks like a red walking lantern, but everyone else think I looks great on the ball=) Thanks guys! Thanks Pauline for the lovely dress. I had lots of fun at the ball. It's time to DE-STRESS... and that helps a lot! The ball was AWESOME! It is totally different from what I've experience before. I could see how they held an auction to raise fund for the hospital. Everything went well, but I'm totally scared by a stranger who came up sitting beside me and started to talk which he eventually wanted to invite me for a dance. I wish someone could save me, but my dear friend sitting beside me were falling asleep. It's our day off... We've been wanting to have a great jump on the jumping pillow just 2-3 minutes away from the hospital. It's real fun! It's an easy day where we could lay back, have late lunch and sitting in the living room watching TV. It's gonna be another new week again tommorow onwards. The weather is getting cold and I didn't even think about bringing along some winter clothes with me. I guess at this stage I could only rely on blankets and heater.

Nothing much happening this week. It's just another week of placement, manage to see some lumps and bumps which is really interesting. I guess I spent most of my time on skype and over the phone. Phone and internet is the only way to use when you miss someone. Somehow I wish I could stand on my own, the feeling of having to rely on the others make me insecure. At some point, you'll have to realize that there might not be someone there for you when you need them. And that makes you feel awful!

Just figure out I started to draw when I miss someone... I guess I need to get myself a sketch pad=D I had a great talk with a patient in the hospital the other day, having lots of fun when he's trying to tease me. That's actually the greatest and the part that I love the most taking care of an elderly. Laughter is important, and life is too short to be worried about. I learnt a lot from you, thanks for those interesting stories which makes me laugh. I wish you could get well soon and keep going=)

Okay, I'm not trying to EMO, but I guess it's due to hormonal changes. I just felt kind of weird, couldn't really put that in words. Am I tired? Yes indeed... Finished off 10 case study and a learning guide in a week time, I guess I haven't been sleeping for nights. For goodness sake, my day and nights are once again upside down.

It's such a relieve to finished that off, but I've never really got a chance to lay back for a while. I'll be working 3 night shifts in a row from Tues to Thurs. After all, I've got class from Wed to Fri, it means no sleep for me at all. I'll see how it goes, probably would drop one of the day. I'll have another shift on Sunday morning, that would be my last shift before getting off for placement.

Whatever it is, I just feel really weird now. I'm probably coping to the feeling of being so relieve out of a sudden, but it's not the end yet. There's still another research topic to deal, gotta produce a proposal for research.

Hey there, I've got another member in my teddy family again=) Isn't that adorable?! Honestly, I felt so heart stacking to actually eat that love shape chocolate on the teddy. I guess I'll keep it=) After so much consideration, I'll probably bring him and Zac together with me during placement. I've been wanting to bring Gulliver as that is my favourite but it doesn't seems to be able to fit in my luggage. Anyway, gotta give this new teddy a name=P I've have him and Zac with me at Wudinna.

Hahaha... You might think that I'm extremely childish! Yes, I got to admit that=) I can be really childish but I'm always serious dealing with matter. I watched Gnomeo and Juliet with Jasmine on Saturday night. O-M-Geeee... It was AWESOME! Gnomes are so adorable and it is just different from the original storyline of Romeo and Juliet. It is freaking funny when William Shakespears appear in the storyline. It is a happyily-ever-after ending which is really sweet! But as we know, that would never appear in real life. I always know that life ain't a fairy tale.

I can't believe that I'm leaving in a week time. Seriously, I'm not prepared to leave Adelaide for 6 weeks yet. I might miss a lot of things in Adelaide. And I know that this 6 weeks is gonna be a tough time. No matter what it is, I'll need to have faith in myself and others. Hopefully this 6 weeks will go through really quick.

I'm stressed out, everything just come all in once. They either never come or just come all together. After all, it's just about the same, study, work, assignment, test, placement and relationship. I only have 24 hours in a day and 7 days in a week. That might have to be divided among all of the above. I don't seems to have much time left for sleep and my own aye?!

Getting through the audit was really a great relieve! I'm glad I made it, and seriously... my vaso vagal nerve is killing me... Felt like puking and going to the toilet at the same time. Loss my appetite for that whole day=(

Can't believe that time flies! Just 2 more topics to go and I'll be going for the last placement. Hey people, I'm leaving in 2 weeks!! I feel anxious, excited, nervous, scared and heavy hearted. I didn't expect to leave Adelaide for 6 weeks for the acute care placement. The most important thing is, I HATE travelling on bus for so long, 8 hours is no kidding man!! To and from takes up one of my day=(

There is nothing really bad actually, it's just that schedule are packed and I'm tired. I'm doing good here, hoping to have more time to do my work and spending it with the precious one. I guess I'm really lucky to have all of the loved ones with me. There's bad part too, I know it's human nature that wanting to know and talks about whatever they saw. But being fair enough, mind your own business and clear up your own mess instead of being too caring to the others. Look at yourself, you might not care what people judge on you, but be shame on it though. What you're trying to judge on people actually reflects back on yourself.

I'm happy with things now, it wasn't the end yet but I guess I've made a right decision for setting such goal. Things seems to be easier if you're not alone and life gets better too=) I understand that there's nothing that would be the same all the time, but I'll try my best to keep it up with effort.

Happy Chinese New Year=) It's bunny year! Just gonna wish you guys a prosperous Chinese New Year, stay healthy and wealthy, laugh to the blast and live to the fullest=D

Honestly, I wasn't really that looking forward for this Chinese New Year as I thought it would be. It was bad last year, trying to call home but there is simply no one that would really spent some time talking on the phone with me. Sad aye=( It's just a new year that I'm moulding in the room.

I thought it was gonna be the same for this year, I was kind of homesick before this. But it's great this year. Had a reunion dinner with D12 family at Chinatown spending AUD455 for the 12 of us. It's worth it, we had lots of fun and trying to have our own CNY in Adelaide. Saw some lion dance and I just feel good=) It's hard to get exactly what we got back at home, but with effort we had an AWESOME one as well!

Let the photos do the talking=D
With my dearest Debrah<3<3> With Chong Kiat( Deb's ah pa XD)

With Qun Qun=P

With Sherwine

With Betty

With Chua Chua=.=!!

With Kong..

With Marianne

With Caroline(Da Jie=D)

With Grandma GeraldineXD

D12 Family+ Marianne+Ryan

All girls=)

I'm glad I had this D12 family, not a big family, but a great one! And it will always be the best! All the best in our coming TAFE audit and Acute Care Placement=) We can do it!! Time flies, we've been spending a year time together, with all the laughter and memorable momentXD