好久没有真的抓笔或在电脑上打华文了。想知道我在这里过得好吗？其实真的还不错，只要懂得善待自己，该放松时就疯狂的玩，该努力时就豁出去，总会找到平衡点。珍惜一切，知足而乐嘛！所以我想把握生命中的每一个人，包括缘分…

很肯定的我还需在这里待上1年，因为也许明年12月才能回家，看见大家有放假都能回家还真羡慕，如果说不想家那是骗人的吧！有时候总会把自己弄得很忙，没那么多时间就不会想那么多。其实我还是老样子，还是那么的爱哭，还是那么的悲观。没办法啊，唯有哭才能让我放开心里的事，累了就哭，哭累了总会睡着。

在这里也快两个月了吧，这段日子里发生的事好多是不可思议的，心里头有点招架不住的感觉。从踏上这片土地开始，我明确的知道这条路不好走。然而，谁与我同在？无论是感情事，或是学业事业，我都看不见未来。是我对一切太没信心吗？还是对自己没信心？真的很害怕失去，只想捉紧点。我能够做的只是付出在我能力范围内的，能够多拼就多拼！

即使累了又如何，路还是要走…离开家前我也挣扎了好久，自己真的能放下家吗？当我知道妈妈在我离开后一个人哭泣了三四天，爸爸不是不曾哭，只是眼泪都是往内流时，真的很心疼。他们让我来到这里都是想让我实现梦想，不想让我后悔。我总是不停的问自己，我能为他们做什么？
日子还很长呢，现在的我还有Cert3,EN和RN的路要走。除了忘了过去，把握当下，展望未来以外，真的不知道自己能干什么了？总该学会如何面对眼前的事了吧！

最近真的好累啊，每一天都不想起来，每一天都觉得睡眠不足！一直告诉自己今晚得早点睡，可是没有一天能够在12点前睡。

Huu... Wake up about 10am, read some novels and fall asleep again.. Wake up at 12.30pm for lunch! Haha... it's porridge and pau for lunch, Mommy! I still think the pau you make is nicer! Planning to go city after that but someone suggested to go beach. At last we make up our mind to go Marino Beach...

The weather was quite nice at first, but somehow don't know why it rains halfway...It's me! Quite a long time didn't camwhore already... I think i look a bit more chubby on my face now..

Hehehe... Love all the group photo we take... There is actually few more and the one that we jump up was very funny... Everyone jump up but somehow it end up i'm the only one in the air... Will post that up next time.

I love this photo as well... The sky and the beach^^ and the smile on everyone's face! Looking forward for the next time...

Wondering what are they looking at???

Enjoy the photo^^ I love it very much... Although personally i still think Glenelg is much more nicer and the beach at Malaysia as well, but Marino wasn't bad. The water was quite clean...

Have Hungry Jack at city before we heading back to Hosanna, I'm learning to eat beef now as i can't stand having chicken all the time. Still feeling ok but need some more time. The beef here is much more nicer compare to the one in Malaysia as this is Aussie beef, the smell wasn't that strong. Btw, i bought a box of Mee Goreng and share it with Geraldine too=)

Just finish my journal yesterday and my currents news just now. Will need to finish my homework as soon as possible eventhough i have 2 weeks time... Hehe... Wanna watch my Bring It On later!!!! Didn't really watch the movie and drama in my comp for quite a long time already...

It's gonna be week 7 next week... So fast! That means 2 more weeks to placement... Aikz!

It's the 4th weekly placement at Ananda, i was quite worried who will be my senior care worker this time. Luckily it's April again, i like her very much. Nothing much special happen but just that someone passed away again on the day before we were there... This is the 3rd one already. And sadly, i just get to know that Walter passed away last week. I know he was quite critical last week, but i don't expect it to happen that fast.

Here's the view at Paradise Interchange, the place that we need to wait for half an hour to transit to Ananda... What a nice sun in the morning...

I seriously love the sky here... Somehow i wish there's time for me to stop by and just stare at the sky for the moment... I'll cherish all the moment.

The bus stop in front of Hosanna, there's where we wait for bus early in the morning at 6.38am.

We need to rest earlier the day before to Ananda, to make sure that no one gonna knock on the door again, we make up this sign... Hahaha... Everyone laugh when saw this^^

It's gotta be Friday again tomorrow. What a stressful and long day.. I'm tired, but what to do? That's called life right? I accept it, as that's what make us grow up. Just need to bare with it and time will pass by or we'll just simply get used to it.

We are doing blood glucose level test in skills lab currently. Ouch! i don't know why but I really feel pain by poking in the finger. Maybe i don't have that much of flesh compare to the others. I guess i was having a bit low blood sugar, the normal range was about 4-6 but mostly people have about 5. My first test yesterday was 4.3 and for today it was 3.6! I guess this is the lowest reading among all of us. OMG... I should have more sugar! Otherwise i'm facing the risk of fainting...

This was my supper for the day before yesterday... Heee... Hungry hungry! Cook that in the dining hall and brought it all the way up to my room.
I'm really really hungry! Finish that in less than 10 mins i guess... Craving for some more food^^

Heee... Naughty me who took the photo... Don't they look like fall in love with each other??? Nahh~~ We are just practising on how to get rid of the dementia resident if they happens to hold your hand like that. We have to twist our arm gently and not to hurt them. Hahaha... But what happen is that the photo end up like that. It's Uncle Chua and our lecturer Fiona.

Just hope that everything will be fine tomorrow, I'm afraid I'll broke down in tears in front of everyone if things just end up too stress for me... By the way,I'll do my best! Don't worry, I'm just trying to be strong! Looking forward for the weekend to come^^

Hmm... It was just as usual these days. Having headache again yesterday, but I'm fine after having some medicine. Whatever we have at skills labs was quite fun for this week. We have just done the assessment on measuring weight, height, pulse, respiration, temperature and blood pressure.

For measuring blood pressure it wasn't really easy as you need to really have good ears. I was quite worry in the beginning as i didn't hear the lubb dubb sound. But that time i guess it was something wrong with the stethoscope. I pass the assessment, my reading wasn't bad too...

Adelaide was getting warmer nowadays, i've got no idea whether it's a joy or what? It means summer coming very soon. I guess the temperature will hit 40 degree celcius.

I was quite relaxing these days, we are on the chapter about caring of older people with dementia, something to do with neurology, quite interesting! Since i always finish the homework on that certain day, so for this few days i've got nothing much to do. We finish class earlier most of the time as we only have 5 person and that's easy. We do our own stuff after 3pm, i'm reading my last chinese novels! Aikz... Last one already, I'm craving for more...


Hehe... Long time didn't really camwhore already! Do I still look the same??? Haha... I'm not gaining weight anyway, but i seriously ate a lot! Someone say i ate a lot but doesn't know where it goes ^^v... I'm still 43kg currently, will work hard to meet at least 45kg. Don't be surprise, I'm not getting fairer, just the effect of the photo.Hehe^^ Steal this from someone else! See how cute this is... I love teddy^^

Hmm... I'm tired!!! Hehe... After all it's quite a good day for me, i learn a lot, work a lot and have fun^^ Btw, I'm still at Yarra Wings while the others at Darling and Swan. Seems like it's our luck, someone passed away again. It's the same thing, someone passed away last week when we was there.

It's like Hosanna day at Ananda, beside the 5 of us having our weekly placement there, there's another 4 person working at Ananda today. Haha... Oh gosh! The princess chair was so heavy, i need more strenght to push them. And i actually sprained my shoulder, but it's ok now.

It's still the same thing actually, doing some personal care but this time i get to involve more. I get to know how to fill in the incident report as there's really quite a number of incident today. All those documentation was quite a lot, just really wonder how could they memorize everything. Get to use slippery sam and lifter, do some stand transfer, feeding, bed making and just help out whatever i can do.

Seriously, i enjoy feeding for now, eventhough i've been feeding the same person all the time. But Valerie it's quite nice, she share a lot of stories with me. I do some feeding with her last week but unfortunately she can't remember me. It's ok by the way...

It's weekend for tomorrow, don't really have any planning yet but after all i'll rest as i could. It will be our 6th week of Cert 3 course next week, so fast that i'm here for more than one month. 3 week placement will be here very soon, really got to work as hard as i could. I'm still under Rosie today, she's quite strict but i just need to get used of that.

Hmm... Got to be very stress after this. Diploma will be just straight after the placement as the others having summer holiday and we'll have summer class... Haiz... By the way, good luck to all my friends that having UEC^^ Gambateh!

Sorry guys… I’ve not been updating my blog for more than 1 week already. Life here been busy, busy and busy. I guess this will be a very long post, lots stuff to share… It’s seriously unbelievable for me that I’ve away from home for more than a month. I’m pretty much convincing with my decision to study here instead of going to a place that I know. It’s a good start with everything new, I get to know how’s the feeling of being independent all the time. I’m sure with what I’m doing and what should I do.

It’s sure that I miss everyone way back at home, it’s been about a month I didn’t hear daddy’s and brother’s voice, it’s happy to have a talk with them.

2Oct09

It’s the first day at Ananda Aged Care, I’m working with April, a senior care worker. It’s been quite ok for me since she’s quite nice and I learnt a lot from her. Beside observation, I get to do something and even though I’m not allowed to do feeding that time, I get to know the concept and explanations.

I don’t know it’s me that love crying or what? Its heart stacking to see that when I come across a resident that get agitated easily and start crying when you touch her. She’s using PEG feed and she keeps on pulling the tube on her belly. Whatever in my mind that time was, what can I do?

I guess I need some time to get used to those stuff that wasn’t in my life before. Got to work harder!

3Oct09

It’s Mooncake Festival, and it’s my first time to have this festival at Adelaide. Nothing much actually, most of them went for War Game. I didn’t join them as I guess I need more rest and paint ball wasn’t my game… haha^^ We got fish and prawn for dinner that night, the moon that night was really nice. I don’t know it’s my problem or what, seems like it’s true that the moon here looks brighter. Everyone said so.

4Oct09

It’s Sunday and it’s weekend. I went to city and heading to a senior’s house for BBQ party. Her name is Michelle too, she’s staying somewhere at Port Adelaide with her boyfriend. I love the cat^^ It’s a nice day for me, thanks for giving me such a memorable day.

I eat a lot and have lots fun. Something unexpected always happens, maybe its fate. That was probably the latest night I’m back in hostel, I guess it’s about 12.

5Oct09

It’s Labour Day and Public holiday! It’s good that I have holiday and no class. Public holiday here was a bit different from Malaysia, people seems to go for shopping and search for entertainment when holiday at Malaysia. But in Adelaide, the shopping mall are closed when public holiday.

7Oct09

We have class on continence pad today by a lady from the TENA Company. It’s quite interesting when I get to know what’s inside the pad that could hold up so much of poo and wee. I laughed a lot that day in the skills lab as we get to try and put on the continence pad on our self and the dummies as well.

We finish earlier that day and Paula don’t want us to go back that earlier. Sooo… We have gardening class! Haha… We have a walk at Hosanna looking at those nice flowers, I took some nice photo too…

8Oct09

We went to the Independence Living Centre in the morning with Paula. It’s pretty boring there, we get to introduce to the equipment and stuff there. I keep on yawning all the way… haha… It’s great to have Mc Donald after that^^ It’s quite fun when have Paula as our lecture, just like our mom taking care of all of us.

9Oct09

It’s 2^nd day at Ananda, really prepare myself mentally to face a lot of stuff there. It’s quite sad that they all were in pair to the certain wings but I’m alone. I get to learn quite a lot but I don’t really like the senior care worker that lead me. I guess she’s a bit fierce looking and work in a rough way. In the other way, there’s other senior care worker that I think was quite nice.

I’m happy that I do some feeding, although I didn’t really know the resident, I try my best to get approach her and have some talk with her. I get to feed her twice for morning tea and lunch. Hmm… I don’t know is it really my voice was too soft or what? Sometimes the lectures always ask me to repeat because they can’t hear me.

10Oct09

Haha^^ It’s Saturday! I wake up at 9 something as I’m going out with some friends again to Marion Shopping Mall, they said it’s the largest shopping mall at Adelaide, but it seems like shopping mall like One Borneo was bigger. We take the 10.18am bus to city and have our breakfast at the Myer Mc Donald at Rundle Mall. After meal we take another bus to Marion, it’s quite far actually. Nothing much special at Marion actually, it’s just like shopping mall at KL.

We leave Marion quite early and headed back to city, have another short walk at china town just to have a look. Have our lunch at Sushi Train, Hmm… I still love Japan Boat Takoyaki! It’s much tastier than the others! Meet Geraldine somewhere at the road with her friend. Haha… We trying to disturb her^^

11Oct09

I wake up quite late today and skip my breakfast and lunch. Got a bit of headache at first as I was disturbed during my sleep. I wake up about 2 and follow them to do some groceries shopping at Newton which is stop 30. We walk there from Hosanna which is stop 26 until stop 30. It’s still ok for me as it’s not too hot nor too cold, now I can wear my shorts.

Haiz… Life’s been in hectic and busy pace, I enjoy it as I prefer an organized schedule rather than don’t know what to do. I hope that everyone was doing well and I’ll work hard too… I’ve got workbook, journals, current events and all those stuff to finish. Its Monday again tomorrow, that’s a long day^^ will have English class till about 6.30pm.