Tuesday, June 2, 2009

Hopefully?!

Arh... I wish I could sleep well! Felt like i'm having insomnia for the past few weeks... I'll actually wake up in shock in the night, sitting on the bed... And don't know whats wrong.. I hate those feelings... As i woke up in the morning having serious headache or sometimes migraine. But its getting better for last week, I was really busy during work, felt exhausted after that...

Haiz... What's wrong with me? I seriously  feel like banging my head to the wall... Or just kill me please! What have i done? Just say I'm stupid, I'm stubborn! ArhHHHHHH!!!! I can't stand myself larh! Seriously hate myself so much! Why did I say such words towards him? Am I crazy? Or insane? My brain stop functioning that time, whatever words just coming out from my mouth... I'm so annoyed that time, I didn't meant anything... But i just can't stand everything that moment, and the volcano burst... U get what i meant? Can I reverse everything? I care on my words so much!

I'm so sorry... I don't know how to say sorry to you... I felt like crying so much larh! I treasure every moment I spent with you guys, and I hope everything will end with the best ending. I just don't know why, I seems to be very tension and stress with all kind of things happen... And I cry like little girl was lost in the jungle, tears just flow like water tap... Until my nose actually blocked and I can't really breathe well the whole night.. So suffering>.<

How? I don't want things to change... Help me please, otherwise I'll be EMO all the time again! You said that I'm a fool, fine... As time pass by, I love being teasing that way... Am I such a weird person? Btw, it means 傻瓜 or 笨蛋 in chinese... I'll miss the moment that we're teasing around, fooling around and everything...

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Ok=p Btw, I have to cheer up myself! Owh yea... Gonna hang out with Mag this coming friday^^ I'm so freaking excited! I miss you SO SO SO SO much gurl... Its bout two mths time we never meet each other, I got so much things to share with you... I'll surely miss you when I leave to aussie! Just can't imagine time flies, we get to know each other for nearly 6 yrs already, and all the time till now we are still the best buddy! I'm proud of it, coz I have such friend as you...TeeHee=p

I hope to spent more time with you for the following two months lar gurl... Hope that you'll get your driving license asap^^ Good luck yea gal...

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Fine... I have to rest now... It's 2.12am now... Let me sleep well!!! Hopefully things will be fine, forgive me for my childish act.. Pray for me please!