Thursday, October 20, 2011

~Sudden thought~

I have no freaking idea what's in my mind right at this moment. But this drawing just came out with such a phrase. I reckon that's probably something that was moving around in my mind. "World seems small, but we're right opposite on the globe."

All of a sudden, I have this strong feeling of going to beach. I must have gone insane somehow. I wish I'll use my mind to get what I want instead of letting my mind to do what mind wants.

There's so much wish where I hope it'll come true. But being truly honest, none of them seems to be possible. There's so much things bothering me at the moment. I know what to do=D I really do! It's about time to get myself back on track.

There's so much things that I should really think about it. It's time to get back to healthy lifestyle, it's time to get back to study, and it's time to be a workaholic again. I'm not really a workaholic, but that's what it is trying to get along with reality.

I'm afraid of losing? YES! Definitely! Not everything will leave me alone, but not everything will stay either. Sometimes, I hate being a sagittarius.. I hate thinking too much and keeping it to myself. When I question myself, I'm probably afraid of having to face stressful moments and tough life on my own. I probably seems pretty tough, but you never know, how much tears was needed to be able to stand on my feet. But I never give up, even though sometimes it was out of my expectation.

Nothing ever seems to be easy to me. At least it never happens in my life up till now.

I don't know what to say and I have no clue how much time do I need. But it's so hard to have faith and believe once again. It's difficult getting to hold something on your hand, but it's even tougher having to let go.