Whatever it is! But greatz! I'm pissed off.. Like never ever before, I didn't show that I'm mad doesn't means that things can go on. I'll get angry too! Once is okay, twice is alright, three times could still be tolerate. But not if it goes on and on and on. There's lots of things that I don't care, but mind your words, think about how would you feel, it's easy to say but are you sure that you're gonna react in the same way if the same thing happenend to you?

Okay... It's about 14 months... I've tried my best not to even get mad like I used to be at home. I cried like crazy because I could only put in on myself, and it's all keeping there. All of those frustration and hard time that i never speak up. It's not because I don't mind. But stop thinking that because I don't mind then it's okay to take advantage on me.

I feel so bad when I finally can't stand it anymore. I didn't mean to burst it out. I'm so sorry. After all I could only hold it back and keep it to myself. I still couldn't get through myself, I still couldn't speak out what is it like for me. I still couldn't cry as I needed a shoulder in front of a person.

I'm okay as always. Just gonna switch off the light, tuck myself in the blanket and hug my teddy tight again.