Seriously, should I be happy or sad? I'm going home soon, but I'm gonna have my placement real soon, in just 2 weeks time. I'm stressed out now, SERIOUSLY!!

Now I started to wonder myself, what's the matter with me? Okay! I have class the whole day on Thursday,did a night shift after that, have class for whole day on Friday, attend a friend's birthday party, off to work again at night, slept for the whole afternoon after back from work, off to work on Saturday night again. I know... I messed up my life. I slept like 3 hours in two days time. Now, I got this weird sleeping pattern. I'll be alright, went for gym this afternoon, hopefully I'm tired enough to sleep early tonight, I'm off to work again tomorrow morning.

Somehow, I'm just kind of in love with night shift. Night shift seems good for me. No rush and seems peaceful. I don't find any problems with it, I'm alright to stay awake throughout the night. I know it's kind of creepy, and it can be bad too sometimes. I know it's not good for health having those messed up sleeping pattern.

Thinking of work, I'm just worried and stressed out. I'm afraid that I couldn't finish off on time. I'm only there for 3-4 days in a week. I'm doing morning, afternoon and night shifts.. Kind of like a mixture. It's really hard to figure out how things really work in every shift. People come and go, routine changes and updated. There is just so much things to take up.

Somehow, I have study and assignments to catch up as well. You just don't feel like dealing with it especially after work, all I know is I'm damn tired. The only thing I could do to deal with heavy assignments was just stay up the whole night, no matter what, I have to finish it!

I'm currently up to the topic about Mental Health. It's an interesting topic, but it's not my cup of tea. The more I get to know about Mental Health, I get to suspect that I have those mental problems. Despite, it makes me think that everyone have mental problems. Just that we're just mild, not that serious to be concern.

Until now... There's still things that I can't figure out. Anyway, I shouldn't care that much, let it be right? But I wonder why, when I don't wanna care, it comes to me. When I care about it soooo much, I couldn't even figure out what. Is it like a games?

I know, I have to be strong, need to hang on there, I'm nearly there right? =)