Owh... Should I say YES? Or seriously FINALLY!!! Ahhem.... Should be finally, I pass my driving test! This is the second time I take the test, I failed at the moutain for the first time, maybe I'm too nervous... and totally No Confidence in myself! But luckily I passed the road when the first time, can I say the JPJ was quite kind? He gave me quite a good mark^^... I was kinda nervous when I know lots people got failed by that JPJ, but he wasn't that horrible i thought, just his appearance was a bit too serious!

So today I just resit for the mountain, side parking and tiga penjuru... Thanks god, everything just go well and smooth! No burden on me now, I really feel stress with this, I don't feel like getting a driving license at first but my dad ask so. I've been dragging this thing for such a long period, i think it takes me one year time to get my license. I remember that I attend the driving seminar last year may, and I attend bengkel last year december as my birthday was on december...

Ok... fine with that, it's history for me! For now, just look forward... I have to CHANGE CHANGE & CHANGE myself... I can't stand it! Am I having mood swings? or in the simple way, EMO...>.<

I'm seriously fed up with myself... I'm such a pessimistic, I have no confidence in myself and not even have faith in what I've done... I really understand what you guys mean! I really work hard, but things just gone the other way without you guys... I'm trying hard to be optimistic, i'm trying hard to be conficence and having faith in everything, but I really need bunch of time!

I have no idea how long I need to CHANGE myself to a better one... But you will never realize changing the way of thinking of someone was the hardest thing! Just let me cool down, don't worry bout me, I'm tough enough i think, I can pass all this moment by myself... Being one person wasn't hard for me anymore, I've used to it, Really... I rather choose to be one person than two person, I couldn't accept or give any commitment by now.

I'm those type of person which will make myself really really busy to let go of those matter that I don't feel like facing... It's almost half a year time we didn't really face each other directly, I'm shocked when you sms me few months ago... I don't really know what is it actually happened between us, I don't know what are you thinking. That's why i chose to gave up everything, I've never told you that you are one of the reason I'm leaving.. I think you knew what I meant when the last time we really chat heart by heart in msn. I can't stand keep waiting all the time, and I realize something changed, that's why i rather gave up...

I love freedom... That's how sagittarius act like! But thanks for everything you teach me... The only things I can say was just Thank you & Sorry... You teach me lots stuff and forgive me for my unreasonable temper... I think i'm hot temper but you said no... Is it?  You've given me so much memory, probably the best memory for the whole year... I wanna keep the memorable moment and let go the bad ones... Thanks for caring all the way, we'll be best friend all the way! Forgive me if you don't think by this way, forgive me if I shouldn't chose to gave up...