Okay, it's sem break again! Should I be excited or sad? Excited for not having to go to lectures... Sad in the way that it's all about assignments and works? and being honest, this is not a holiday kay...

I'm feeling kinda weird recently. I guess I've been thinking too much! And that eventually gonna drive me crazy. I wish I'm a mind reader, but I'm not. I think I'm strong enough to hold on that, but apparently I have no idea what's gonna happen in the future. I might be able to hold on all the way, but there's a time limit. I need a bit of confidence and making sure that this is not an endless wait ay? I'm sure I'll be able to make it if I know what does it means. Guess what? This just makes me feel like I'm hanging in the middle of nowhere.

You won't believe what is the most wonderful things for me now. It is actually waking up in the morning and realize that I'm one day closer to go home=) It's not that I don't like the life and everything here, but my battery gonna turn flat soon. I need recharging!

I guess the thing that I actually need to learn was giving myself a break. Seems like everyone totally agree that I've been pushing too hard on myself. I really get what you mean. I know you're worried about me. You said I'm kind of like a workaholic, I wonder, am I? But I do feel weird when I'm not tired and not working on that day too. Maybe I just love my life being busy? In that way, time actually flies!

I didn't mean anything with this. I'm trying to remains silence all these while but it doesn't mean i don't care. I don't mind to let people know about my life, it's all my thought and how I get through all those wonderful and tough moment. But, I don't need anyone to comment on what's right or wrong. Perhaps I need a little bit of freedom on how I handle my life. When I'm stressed up, I just wanna be insane for that moment with all of my friends. Just laugh and cry as I like, that's the point. Somehow, things that matter was not how people look at you, but how you look at yourself. What you think was actually the reflection of your mind.

The first week of the holiday is coming to an end. I've still got one more assignment to go, and lots of day of working. Hmm... I just feel like talking now, can I?