Saturday, November 21, 2009

I'm back... Sorry for disappearing!










Oopss… It’s been quite a long time I didn’t update my blog, sorry guys… Too much things happened recently, gonna cool down a bit, orientate myself back to the reality. Making myself a bit busy so that I won’t think that much. Getting fever for about 3 days and those moment was kind of blur for me… Probably too much things happening + stress and the weather makes me couldn’t afford.

Yupe… I’m tired! But I know I’m invincible just like ironwoman. I know I can stand up after I cry. So… don’t worry, I’ll be fine. I’ll be stronger than before! I’m pretty sure what am I doing, will fight for what I want.

There’s lots of stuff that I didn’t share out here, too tired and busy, having problems with my internet too… Have my last weekly placement, go harbour town again, celebrating birthday for friends, drink 4 shot of vodka and 2 beer first in my life time and I’m not drunk at all… Somehow I hope that I could forget everything that moment but nt, I cnt slp that night…

幸好那个夜晚是黑暗的,因为那样你就不会看到我脸上的眼泪。

16Nov09

It’s the first day of placement, get a bit nervous. Meet Linda for the first time, she gave me 2 or 3 shower to do on my own. She’s quite good as she will explain and correct me for any mistakes. It’s really tired for the first day as we still don’t used to have shift frm 8am till 4.30pm.

Really have headache after the shift, a bit stress… I’m trying to memorise the name of residents and remember their likes and dislikes. Gonna collect information from the care plan for the case study. Hopefully the time will pass by very fast, couldn’t wait for the shift to off all the time.

Tomorrow gonna be another day again! Gotta work hard and enchance my skills…

18Nov09

It’s just the 3rd day of placement today, and I’m exhausted! Having headache again gosh, I’m gonna crazy then!!! Don’t think I can tolerate anymore without any paracetamol this time. Everyone back at tshung tsin already graduate and having holiday, aikz, miss that! Really miss the time that we laugh together and having fun… I don’t feel like I am myself now.

Somehow, getting a bit quiet compare to before, a bit tired to show a smiling face if you doesn’t feel like. I’m not those person that like to talk a lot, but I’ll join in whatever I can.

Comeon, 12 days to go to finish my placement… Will be having my shift on afternoon tomorrow, from 12.30 till 9pm, tired arh… I need a holiday!!! Need to get a job again when holiday, where is all my holiday gone?? So stress… Summer class coming after that, no holiday at all!

My birthday coming soon, getting older again. Hmm… This is the first time I’m not celebrating birthday way back at home. Haiz… Just wish me luck, I hope that I can do well in my placement and get a job as soon as possible.

19Nov09

It’s the 1st afternoon shift for us, finally get to sleep in a bit more… Paula came to visit us again today, need to do some paperworks and getting some comments from the team leader and senior carers. I’m still alright as I got some positive comment from Rosie… I couldn’t really catch what she want because she always change what she say… Sweat… A bit like mood swings! Haha… After all, still appreciate her for teaching me that much and always give me very good comments for my log book.

Hmm… The 1st afternoon shift was interesting for all of us, probably the most memorable placement for all of us. Non of the batch have blackout at nursing home when having placement, but we do have one… It’s kinda scary, but you’ll need to know how to handle stuff in the dark. Gotta be brave and show a good face eventhough you feel scare. =) Got Iveta’s husband to sent us back because we finish off earlier a bit late and miss the bus.

Eventhough it’s tiring, I’m still enjoying that, pretty sure what am I doing. But I was a bit headache with the older person behaviour, don’t wanna go on bed, verbally aggressive, keep on shouting… Aikz! A bit annoying when a person shouted the same things throughtout your whole shift.

Didn’t see April for quite a while already, miss the time she teach and works with me. She’s really nice, I can even chat with her like a friend.







20Nov09

The last day of first week placement, what a relief, at last we finish our first week. The weather getting started to turn cold again, thank god! The heat is burning my skin… Nothing much for today but just repeating the same routine for afternoon shift. Roughly just getting ready the bed for the residents, toileting, serving and feeding for dinner, getting residents to change their nighties and put them on bed, serving supper and checking on pads.

Comparing the early and late shift, the early shift is more hectic and busy. I get to do more in the morning , I can do 3 shower all by my own, serving and feeding for lunch, afternoon tea, sending residents to activity, and lots of toileting.

I get Rosie to sign me off for some stuff that I’ve done and the comments for the 1st week. I’m happy that she’s happy with my work for the moment.

Today’s the first day we get on bus by ourself during late shift. It’s raining… and we only have 1 umbrella for the four of us. What to do? Run for our life… Haha… =) Having fun when the all of us standing under an umbrella and take photo! It’s kinda scary when we was on the M44 bus, full of aboriginal people, seems like they was a bit drunk, got a bit of verbally aggressive. That’s probably the first time we was out at city during night because we need to transit there. It’s quite complicated as all those clubbing activity was active.

Giving myself some relaxing time after shower, went for supper and talk for about an hour. Getting started on my case study after that since I wasn’t sleepy, managed to jot down points for about 2 papers. Gonna tidy up that later and type it out again, still lack of some information, probably will go and search for it again. Hehe.. Get on bed about 3am^^

21Nov09

It’s Saturday, finally get to rest a bit. Wake up about 12 and have my lunch. Planning to go city because I seriously need stocking as my toes having pressure sore area already. My foot gets very tired after wearing the shoes for that long.

It’s a bit raining, all of them don’t plan to go out. At last just me and chua go out together. We went to woolworth and rundle mall, managed to get my stocking. Hmm… of course gotta refill my food. Get some yoghurt, Tim Tam, watermelon and some drinks. Still got some chips, cookies, tea and instant noodles in my room. All of that is to keep me from getting hungry^^ Go over to The Chemist to get another new bottle of Loreal shampoo for myself, it’s gonna finish very soon. Went to Mc Donald for a meal and ltr on walk to E3 to catch our bus.Back at Hosanna around 6pm.

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It’s really fast, the 1st week of placement just finish like that. It wasn’t like what I thought, I thought it will be a hard time. But hey guys, I’m still alive, I have to be strong! Eventhough I’m a girl but I think I can be strong like a guy as well.

There won’t be anything in the coming days, but just my dream to be a RN and specialist in neurology. That’s all I have to think about, I’m not gonna involve with any other things else beside my work and studies.

Don’t worry on how am I doing, I won’t give up that easily! Studies is the only things that I could hold on now. Go for it or else you will regret… I always remember what you say daddy, this is what I choose, I will prove to everyone that I can do it, I won’t want myself to regret.

Somehow, I’ve never say something like I miss you daddy before in my life. I never thought of I will miss you that much when I was here. Sometimes when I recalled my childhood, the moment that you spent with me was really memorable. I remember that you came to school during breakfast time when I was primary one for the first month just because you worried I don’t know how to buy food on my own. I always got nice food for lunch when primary 5 and 6 because you buy and sent it over to me, that’s what makes everyone envy of. I still remember that I celebrate my 9 years old brithday for three times in that year. When I have to finish my work till midnight, you will stay with me sometimes eventhough you are really tired. Sometimes I really agree with what the others said, daddy really spoilt me. You really try your best to get what I want. Hehe… And you bring me to eat whatever food that mommy don’t let me to eat^^Kakaka…

Hmm… I only get to listen to your voice after about 1 month I’m here. For that moment, in the bottom of my heart, I really feel like… I never know I will miss you that much. That’s probably the happiest moment because at the same time I get to chat with my dad, mom and brother. I love you guys! And of course my sister!… I spent about 45 dollars talking to phone with her for an hour that day=)