What kind of life is this? This is really tiring. Work has become the first thing that appears in my mind when I was awaken by my alarm around 5 in the morning. Believe me, I have no appetite to eat at all. The appetite come in the middle of work when you finally know that you're doing fine at work today. By the time I get home and have a shower, all I want is just sleep. When I finally wake up at 6.30pm for dinner, you'll definitely see me sitting down and staring at my food for the next half an hour. There's nothing wrong at all, just that I'm still in snooze mode, and I'll be questioning myself and everyone on how did I get down here? I have no idea at all, that is how disorientated I am.

That is still not too bad. Sometimes when I work double shift, I'll be back for lunch but it pretty much depends on how long is the break in between. I'll be back for lunch and a short nap if it is long enough to be back. Anyway, it's gonna be really late when I got home, have shower and dinner. It's bed time again, bad luck if I'm working in the morning the next day or even double again. This is what I mean by work, eat and sleep. I've been eating pretty much, but mind me, it's never the same time. I can have my dinner around 11pm if I work in the afternoon.

I wish everyone understand how's that feel to me. So.. I'm sorry if I fall asleep when I'm talking to you. I'm sorry if I lose my temper if you can't stop grumbling on me. I'm sorry if I'm being grumpy due to the long day I had. It doesn't mean I'm alright even I didn't mention how's my day at work. It can be fun sometimes, but there are days where it's just not my day.

Yet, I'm still here. Writing and writing before bed time. It's gonna be another long day again tomorrow, gonna be a double shift. I'm so gonna disappear after things are settled. Can't wait for that! Hmm, even a 1 hour bus ride from Hosanna to Westlakes is actually kind of relaxing=) but I wanna go somewhere further=)