It's too hard to describe how is it like getting into such a situation. Dilemma? I'm feeling so lucky to own everything I have at the moment. Everyone has been treating me in such a nice way. It wasn't that it's only a single person but everyone did! Somehow I wish it wasn't true.. I'm putting myself in such a situation that I don't know what to do being care by everyone. The more care I've got from everyone, the feeling of insecure gets stronger. I'm so afraid that things will come to an end and I have to go own by myself again.

This is too cruel! I know it's impossible to keep things forever. But.. Is there a way to keep part of it? Life goes on and I have to move forward. Can I keep something with me for this upcoming journey? It's so hard to keep going, and I'm afraid of what's coming up.

This is reality! Telling me to wake up when the dream is coming to an end.

如果世上发生的每件事都有原因，那我好想知道，这一切到底意味着什么？不要让我如此的幸福，因为我好害怕失去的感觉，我没有想像中的坚强...