在我们的现实生活中，我们不停的引用着如果，可是有多少的如果会实现，有多少的如果能回头，有多少的如果是事实，又有多少的如果是能够兑现的呢？我承认，我讨厌自己的悲观。我宁愿想得最坏，也不愿意往好的一方面想，也许没有信心，可是希望越大，失望越大。

在这里的日子，一个人的时候，想得特别多。在想，原来来了这里，我也放弃了不少东西。放弃了原有的可能性，也许我不够坚强，战斗纠缠不下去，所以我选择放弃离开。现在回头再看时，原来一切都只是习惯，，习惯了有这么一个人一直在身旁。我不否认自己变了许多，成熟了，不再是大家以前说的大小姐了，独立了，可是还是如以前那么固执，爱哭...

我的坚强也很快就用完了，惟有把自己弄得很累才不会想很多。就因为把自己逼得太紧，所以坚强不起来，累了就只能用泪水来发泄。有些事情，我不会说出口，也说不出口，逼我只会让我离你更远。

现在什么都不想，只是想要某些事情一直都没改变。过去的很想忘了，可是有些事情，忘不了，因为那曾经是习惯。

PS：12月要回家了，拭目以待我那怪怪的华文吧！我自己也受不了...

Hey there, it’s been ages since I last update my blog… Sorry guys! I know it was like 3 months ago that I last updated my blog. I’m putting myself in trouble now as I’ve got so many things to write. There are heaps of things that are happening in these 3 months. Hmm, a short period that was fully of joy and laughter together with some tears.

On the month of May, it was just all about eating, studying and working. Not to forgot about my dearest friend, Debrah’s birthday. I bought her 4 cupcakes that were specially made! We planned to give her a surprise, and we knew she won’t fell into our trap so easily. So I ended up telling lie that there was spider in my room, acting like I’m so scared! (I’m actually scared that she won’t be bothering me) Haha! But I got you Debrah! It wasn’t a big spider, but more them 10 of them hiding in my room with a birthday cake=) we hope you really like the surprise girl.

When it comes to the month of June, it wasn’t fun anymore but full of hard work and tears. It’s time to get serious when the A & P topic began. It comes with few hundred pages of learning guide and 10 assessment essays. Not to forget the 4 test with the passing mark of 70%. It wasn’t the matter of easy or difficult but about how much time would you have to deal with all of these. You would really want to cry if you’re working from Saturday to Tuesday and test on 9 topic of Anatomy and Physiology on Wednesday morning. I’ve used up all the spare time including break time during work and extra time when waiting for bus to study, but there’s no way to finish all of that. It just wasn’t the matter about whether I’m working hard enough, somehow I wish I had 48 hours in that day. I couldn’t help but was kind of frustrated with myself for not meeting my own expectation. Seriously, I hardly have extra time to really sleep. Honestly, I haven’t got time to watch any movie or drama for a couple of months already.

On the last day of our 2nd term, we went to celebrate at the Korean restaurant, it was good but missing a couple of them. It was a day full of laughter and crazy act, we was like the attention to everyone passing by. The “but but car” song really make me laugh till sitting on the floor. Oh god! Please don’t sing that at the bus stop again next time, I feel so embarrassed when people keep looking at me while I can’t stop laughing sitting on the floor. Anyway, D12! There it goes our second semester, good luck for the upcoming one!

I guess that was too much for me, and there’s no way for me to get home this holiday. So, I had a short getaway to Melbourne for 4 days 3 nights with Debrah. It was great! There’s nothing much to worry about and get away from work. Melbourne was totally different from Adelaide, lots of Asians, really a CBD! The first lunch we had there was at Old Town, Ohh! I really miss that! Something that shouldn’t be left out was Starbucks Green Tea latte and EASY WAY! I miss that DAMN much! Eating that kind of food makes me feel like I was home. Seriously, studying in Melbourne was still like back in home. You could just find everything there. Anyway, I still prefer Adelaide, it’s peaceful and less hectic. The hustle and bustle of Melbourne was not a good place for studying with lots of entertainment.

I went to Philip Island, Churchill Island, Harbour Town, Chinatown, Southern Cross and just basically walking around the city. It was a holiday, so I spent some time on exercising, doing spa and sauna in the hotel. It was really relaxing! Time that you enjoy always pass by like lightning, short but precious and memorable. I met up with one of the ex- classmate as well, talk a lot about our friends and class. That makes me feel like going home. After all, my secondary school life was really memorable with all the happening events.

Well, after the trip it was time to work hard again. Think a lot during that period, there’s something that I should probably give up and stop dragging. It’s tiring. So, just leave that aside. I was sick last week, with sore throat, cough, flu and headache. I knew I need some rest but I need to finish my assignment before it due. So I end up sleeping at 5am for 4 days consecutively to finish my work. I had another sleepless night after that as I work night shift, from 11pm till quarter past seven in the morning. It was crazy and tiring! But it’s time to rest to get well=) I’m alright now, getting better. I’m trying to sleep like a pig now, 12 hours in a day, handing up the assignment was like such a huge relieve. All I need to worry now is about work, will be working everyday this week. I’ve done my performance appraisal today, it was good but just need to attend some extra education session that was optional. I got to stop here, otherwise I won’t be finishing until tomorrow morning! Miss you all, take care=)