Reflection of 2010,
From the onset of summer class, joining of D12 & 13, and there it starts my life of taking Diploma of Nursing. I know it's a no turning choice which I made by myself. Even though life is hard, I have to go on, to leave no regrets by deciding my own path. I won't give up, because I'm determine to reach what I want.
From sending every resume, receiving no replies and till the day that I received call for interview. I consider myself as lucky! Everyone stands an equal chance and all just depends on your resume and first impression. Receiving contract of employment and having hard time coping with new environment, and up till today being the baby girl in workplace which everyone being really good to me. Thanks a lot for everyone in The Bentleigh, and thank god for giving all of these to me.
It's really good being able to afford my own living and rewarding myself a trip to Melbourne. Once upon a time, I never thought I would be able to make it up to this point. The trip to Melbourne is such a great trip for me to release all the stress that's been building up over the year. I couldn't get home but at least I could get away from study and work for just a few days.
The life after that is all about assignment and work which really drives me crazy. I admit I'm such a workaholic, I never let go a single chance of being able to work hard. Somehow I always think that there's part of me that was insane. I'm glad that I reach one of my goal of never ever having to delay my work. I can sacrifice my sleeping time to finish off all of my assignment even though I knew extension of due date is acceptable. I can't tolerate with myself for being lazy. This is what I want and there isn't any single chance that I would like to let myself down. Everyone keeps telling me, RELAX! A rubber band will tear apart if too much force is exerted on it.
The life after that is all about the crucial moment of 160 hours aged care placement. Placement is the great timing to gain knowledge and experience and it's the moment which I suffer the most. I have placement during weekdays and work during weekend. Being a student is hard especially when your luck doesn't go the way it suppose to be. It's a hard time and the moment which I become really emotional. I have the passion of being a nurse but I tend to built up relationship with the residents once I get along with them. The hardest part of this job is actually seeing someone you've been taking care of suffering and struggling from death. Nothing in the scope of your work is expectable. There's pros and cons by making your work interesting but full of 'surprises'!!
Dear Harrold,
It's been only few weeks of knowing you but your character and personality leave me a good impression. It's going to be a good memory for me talking to you when giving medication and taking you out for a cigarette. I still remember how excited you are trying to tell me a good news, and those moment when we're counting airplanes up in the sky when you're smoking. I love the way when you just don't want to take up our time but we really worried about you.
Ps:Rest in peace and you'll always be one of the most special person I've taken care of.
There's joy and tears in this 160 hours placement. I'm glad that I could get through that with positive feedback. I turned 19 on the 15th December 2010. Honestly, I've been wanting to celebrate my birthday at home. But I had the greatest birthday ever in my life. I received 130++ birthday wishes on facebook, birthday wishes through sms and phone calls from Malaysia. I received birthday wishes and presents from colleagues, course mate and etc. I still work on my birthday and feels great receiving heaps of wishes when I'm working even from the site manager. I had a great dinner with colleagues with all kind of nice dishes. I went for clubbing for the first ever time in my life. Even though 15December is over, but I still receive belated birthday wishes and presents until now. It's finally time to go HOME after 15 months. I wonder how did I make through all of the homesick moment when I'm really down. I've probably used few boxes of tissues and wetting my pillow and hugging my teddy over the night. I've been keeping myself single again over the year after the previous relationship. I feel sorry for all the rejection that I've made, I never really try to open up a space by accepting someone in this year. But Hey! I'm really back at home, no kidding... and it's real!
As a conclusion, I'm grateful for meeting so many great people in my life trying to guide me and get me through those hard time. There's still so much obstacles to go through and uncountable goals to achieve. Heaps of improvement on myself and overall, it's an AWESOME Year of 2010!
Goals for 2011=)
-Be more hardworking, never try to be lazy
-Stay healthy
-Must get IELTS 7 to register with the Nursing Board
-Appreciate everyone in my life especially my lovely family and people who love me
-Work hard but give myself some moment to de-stress
-Start my savings and plan ahead for my degree studies
-Open up a space for someone special which I could rely on
-Never give up under any circumstances
-Laugh till the blast and live everyday to full
-Be grateful on what I have and own