Monday, October 25, 2010

怎么了?

我还真的不晓得自己最近怎么了?压力吧...课业有压力,工作更有压力,还有自己解决不了的问题,我觉得自己快发疯了!

也许我不曾发现,在某些方面,我像是个完美主义者。我很努力的想要做好每一件事,可是我并不完美。即使受了委屈我又能如何,我并没有想要回应的打算。我只有一个请求,不要再增加我的负担,不要再增加我的压力,让我有个依靠,好吗?

微笑不代表我真的很开心,有时候想掩饰真正的自己,也不想影响别人的情绪。我不晓得反驳,因为要比吵架,我不可能会赢。今天工作后,我真的超想哭,可是我不能让眼泪流下,要坚强不是吗?有时候,处处为人着想,站在别人的观点上思考,那我自己呢?我忘了我自己。我对着大家笑得灿烂,可是我没有笑给自己看。

果然我还是忍不住了。哥,我好想念你,你还是和以前一样那么的幽默,总是逗我笑。但这回我哭了,因为你说很久没有抱我了,就算要倒下,也要等到回家才行,因为你会替我人工呼吸!加上今天工作的压力,和一切的一切,我竟然哭得稀里哗啦...就像个小孩一样!你说,两个月很短,我相信你,会坚持走下去!

1 comments:

Doreen said...

Hey gal ~ Hang it there... For sure you can overcome it ^^ I've the faith in you ~ I'm having my final exam now actually... I think my lifestyle also almost like yours... Everyday only sleep for 2 hours (need to force myself to stay awake to finish up my study) and this is the third day I do so... Today really feel exhausted but I still have 4 papers to go, which is a lot to cover :( I keep on telling myself that don't worry too much and just go for it as GOD will bless :] Wish you best of luck for your coming posting and gambateh yea!!!