Well, it's really time to be back to reality, I've been back to Adelaide for 10 days but it seems like ages for me. In fact, I'm back for ten days and I've been working the previous 8 days=P I have no idea what am I doing at the moment. I'm just trying to WORK, WORK AND WORK!

I sounds like a workaholic aye?! Honestly, I think I am one. Things just seems so weird if I've got nothing to do. Working all the time was just like challenging myself up to a certain limit. I'm always in doubt regarding how far I could go by just keep working non stop.

I still miss Wudinna, miss those kind of life where you could just relax and keep going with your work.It's really funny when everyone is in doubt of what is the reason behind that I don't really feel like coming back to Adelaide. The first thing that came up to people's mind is actually, 'Did you met someone there?' Well, hell not! I don't think much will happen in 6 weeks time. I love the life at Wudinna, I miss the Hospital Ball, the Mexican Night and of course the Great Escape up the mount and way far to the coast.

I guess it's reasonable working all the time now, it's time to save some money for myself and planning for the future. I can't wait till the financial year end, it's time for tax refund again! I've work so hard and part of it goes to the tax, and now I want to get it back! How bad is that when I don't have any income during my placement and I've been spending for all the food.

Well, I've been working 8 days in a row and the marathon is still going. I have another 6 days to go for the next day off. I need to be really motivated for that. It's been really tiring but I'll have to keep going, can't give up when I'm half way through.

Time flies, I can't believe that I actually finished my Diploma and Cert 3 in one and a half year, what kind of intensive course is that? There's heaps of things happening all these while, I just really need to face the reality. I could only say, it's been great after all for having so many people with me especially the love one. I'm so sorry for being so busy all the time, but it's been really precious having everyone with me all these while. I fight to stay back as there's precious things that means a lot to me. I'm not giving up and I won't unless there's no choice.

I've been praying hard that time will flies, and just get me through everything, take me back to where I wanted to be. And it's coming true, I have another 5 shift to go, 40 hours, and I'll be back in Adelaide in 8 days=D Geez, we've manage to finish up a 6 weeks placement only in about 5 weeks, or probably less than that. I thought things will go on smoothly, but it seems like my body doesn't want to be compliant with it.

Well, I'm having a lazy life now. Basically, I'm just having placement and sleep for the rest of the time. I've seriously been sleeping in, waking up late and even missed my dinner. I'll try to eat more, but at the moment I could still afford losing a few kilos as I've gain probably 2-3 kilos here. I'm trying to eat more but I just lost my appetite.

Oh hey! It's gonna be the 14th April soon. That is the first day that I'm in Wudinna. Other than that, it still means heaps a lot to me=) Time flies, up till now I still can't believe what just happened! Life is not easy, but we need faith to go on. I'm gaining it step by step, and I hope that I'm not wrong this time.

I think it wasn't too bad trying to settling in a new place, but right at the moment, I miss Adelaide a lot. I love Adelaide. It's not that I don't miss home, I miss home as I miss the people and especially my family. But Adelaide is certainly a great place to live on. I currently have great friends, great workplace, great colleagues and important people with me here. One of my big wish was actually trying to get my family here, I hope that they would love it too=D

It seems like a lot of thought just came up to my mind right before bed time. And right now, I'm holding my phone and trying to type out what it is all about. At some point, I thought that things would remain the same as they always do. But apparently, this ain't a fairy tale.No one would remain static at the same point, somehow life would have to go on no matter what. I have no idea what it is sticking in my mind now, but it absolutely has been haunting me badly.

The only thing that I knew was that I feel like a crap at the moment. Which I seriously need someone to be here with me. And all of that impossible make things hard. Once upon a time, I always think that there would only be people walking away from me in my life, and I'll be staying there figuring out why. And right at the moment, I'm thinking if it would be me someday. Nothing is impossible, things often comes true if it is on your mind. I wonder why did that came up on my mind as I am not someone that would simply give up something and be the one who turn around and walk away just like that.

There is a saying that, don't make a decision when you are truly mad, because it often turns out to be a regret. In my case, I guess it should be never make a decision when I'm tired or feeling down, as I don't even understand how does all this insane thought came up. Time flies! The most important thing is, I hate staying in the same place as no one would ever wait for you. There are moments where you think why did people wanted to give up after holding on for so long. And bare in mind, what makes you holding on for so long? Does it worth giving up after that much of effort?

You might think that what do I actually understand about life? I might be a lil' kids in your sight, but I've seen and gain a lot from some of my experience. Which I think sometimes I sound like a philosopher rather than a nurse. Whatever it is, I feel funny, and I seems insane tonight. I don't wanna walk away, but I feel really bad right at the moment. I wish you could understand that.

I'm tired, really tiring after all. I've been in this place for 3 weeks. It wasn't very long though.. But time flies, it's hard to get through but it seems to go faster than we thought! And right at the moment, I'm feeling kind of weird. I'm not only tired physically but mentally and emotionally.

I guess I'm tired physically at the moment as I haven't been sleeping well for the past few nights. But in mentally and emotionally, I guess I've been worrying too much on the upcoming things. Which I think I should have some advance planning, I wanted to have things in place and stop worrying about it. 

You probably won't understand how important is some of the things that I'm holding on now. Which I don't want to and can't afford to lose it. What can I say and how should I explain that? Everything comes to me at once, I've got everything I want but it's not going to stay there forever. I need to work extremely hard to get there. I wonder how many of you actually saw the moments where I struggle on my own. Which I eventually still thinks that I'm not working hard enough yet. You might think that I'm insane! I agree with that. I think I'm insane to a certain point where I couldn't believe I could do 3 night shifts in a row with classes during the day.

I studied hard, work hard no matter in job or assignment just to give it the best I could. It's all because I want to leave no regrets. I wish there is someone who will tell me, don't worry you'll be fine, nothing will change, you won't lose anything.

I love this place, I love this work and there's people that means a lot to me. Nothing seems to be perfect, so what should I do?

Hey, I'm currently in Wudinna, well... In fact, I'm here for nearly 3 weeks already. I guess we settled down quite well, and picking up the routine as time goes by! Hmm, can't deny that I miss Adelaide, but I had heaps of fun in this new place. I'm so sorry that it takes so long to update you guys. Wudinna is a really small town which has about 500+ of population but they're extremely nice! They made us a foreigner felt the warmth of being home. I wanted to go back to Adelaide in the first place, but I fell in love with this place. It is quiet, peaceful and as I said, you could find the simplest form of happiness here=) I guess I'll love the work here, no time frame and enjoying the time with the residents by providing a proper care. The residents were lovely too. Eventhough there is not much happening stuff in this small town, but there's is some interesting case too=) Since it's a quiet place, I guess both me and Debrah spend most of our time in the kitchen other than hospital, on the bed and on the phone. We're feeding ourself fairly good at the moment, we can see signs of putting on weight already. We can't believe that we were actually invited to attend the hospital fundraising ball. We didn't want to attend that at first as we have got no proper clothes. We didn't expect to attend such a function during our placement. But we ended up having nurses trying to organise dress and shoes for us so that we'll look good at the ball=D How sweet is that! I felt that I looks like a red walking lantern, but everyone else think I looks great on the ball=) Thanks guys! Thanks Pauline for the lovely dress. I had lots of fun at the ball. It's time to DE-STRESS... and that helps a lot! The ball was AWESOME! It is totally different from what I've experience before. I could see how they held an auction to raise fund for the hospital. Everything went well, but I'm totally scared by a stranger who came up sitting beside me and started to talk which he eventually wanted to invite me for a dance. I wish someone could save me, but my dear friend sitting beside me were falling asleep. It's our day off... We've been wanting to have a great jump on the jumping pillow just 2-3 minutes away from the hospital. It's real fun! It's an easy day where we could lay back, have late lunch and sitting in the living room watching TV. It's gonna be another new week again tommorow onwards. The weather is getting cold and I didn't even think about bringing along some winter clothes with me. I guess at this stage I could only rely on blankets and heater.

Nothing much happening this week. It's just another week of placement, manage to see some lumps and bumps which is really interesting. I guess I spent most of my time on skype and over the phone. Phone and internet is the only way to use when you miss someone. Somehow I wish I could stand on my own, the feeling of having to rely on the others make me insecure. At some point, you'll have to realize that there might not be someone there for you when you need them. And that makes you feel awful!

Just figure out I started to draw when I miss someone... I guess I need to get myself a sketch pad=D I had a great talk with a patient in the hospital the other day, having lots of fun when he's trying to tease me. That's actually the greatest and the part that I love the most taking care of an elderly. Laughter is important, and life is too short to be worried about. I learnt a lot from you, thanks for those interesting stories which makes me laugh. I wish you could get well soon and keep going=)