Here it GOES!!! Just another week to go for my placement^^ Got to FIGHT till the end! I hope that everything will go through smoothly. Crossed fingers and pray hard for a job… It’s fast, I just mention that November is here not long ago, and now it’s December coming just 2 days to go… My birthday is COMING and Christmas is COMING!!! Hoohoohoo… Everyone was in Christmas mood…
This is what happen to my toes after two weeks of placement, i got pressure area just like the residents, and it's swollen now... Dear toes, you gonna take care for this coming week >.<
Just 9 days to go and I’ll be at Adelaide for 3 months, couldn’t really imagine that… What happen throughout these 3 months? Can’t really tell everything but even I myself can’t believe so many things could happen in this short period. I consider 3 months as short as there’s still a long way for me to go… I know how to overcome that, just don’t worry… Don’t ask what, you know the answer, I won’t tell, just wanna keep everything to myself. Hopefully it won’t overflow in the bottom of my heart.
Waiting for mommy to post over my stuff now, miss all those things that I couldn’t bring with me. How good if I can bring my room here. I don’t know how many obstacles is there in front of me, I know I couldn’t stop crying but I’m sure I can stand up strong after that. It doesn’t matter how it happens, the main things is that you learn and gain something.
No one would know how to stand up if they never fall, human being doesn’t exist to know everything in their life. I never give up what I really wanted in my life, what I do was just hold on tight and appreciates every single opportunity. I’ll give up if I gave myself a best try and that opportunity doesn’t belongs to me.
I have lots of stories to share with everyone, but just don’t have much time for that. I promise I’ll share some of my stories after my placement. Probably what I saw and experience throughout the placement. Although working as a carer was demanding, but I’m happy with what I’m doing. You could see things in different perspective and even in the way the older person sees their life. I have a lot to learn from them, some of them undergo World War 1 & 2, and some of them were so optimistic that could live happily even after severe stroke. I know I was way too young after all, those residents always call me young little girl or young Michelle. Anyway, I’m really 17 at the moment, couldn’t deny that. The hardest part to work as a carer was most probably dealing with the other staff, some was nice but some wasn’t.
To all my dear friends,
I’m really fine here. Having my 3 weeks placement and coping well with everything. I love the freedom and the way I learn to be independent here. There’s lots things that can’t express in words, but it will comes to you when you experience it. Everything was lovely for me here but just the weather that drive me CRAZY! It’s freezing cold these days, and I was quite happy to see it rains heavily, for the goodness sake I haven’t seen rain for quite a long time already. Hehe… I’m not Sakai, but you will understand if you’re here… And the other things, CHICKEN!! You will surprise if there’s no chicken, even people out of Hosanna will know its CHICKEN everyday…
I know that quite a few of you guys was still considering about your future path, I’m happy to give some advice but that’s what I think and experience. Just wanna wish everyone good luck and all the best! I seriously miss everyone so much.
Naahh… Just wanna say I’m not coming back this holiday, just 2 weeks for me, I don’t think I can push myself in the plane and come back here again that time. STOP asking me please… Hehe, you guys really makes me wanna go home. I’m alright by the way, at least I didn’t crying all the way just because I miss home. That feeling will only comes to me when all sort of pressure exerting on me and when I’m not busy. Anyway, I couldn’t join the reunion and hope that you guys will take care!
Hehe... Soooo tired... It's the second last day of my second week placement, don't worry I'm still here, not disappearing, but just too tired to update what's happening recently..
I'm still doing alright for the moment for my placement, at least I get all the positive feedback. Just hand in my resume today, wish me luck, hope that I'll get it!
Nothing much actually, making myself busy so that i won't think that much. I'm gettng used to the routine for placement actually, it's still alright for me. I'm still in the progress of learning and the things i need the most was experience. Nothing much i could do actually, just need more time.
Just like what i said, each day comes just once in a life time. So we gotta cherish every moment, appreciate what we have. Don't blame anything but be happy on what we have.
For the moment, I'm still happy with what I'm doing. Although it's something demanding but as long as I could help them and I know what am I doing then i'll be glad with that. I won't regret with what I've choose because I try hard and do all in my very best.
Have a great talk with daddy that day... Hehe... I gotta call home again after i recharge as I'll have about 200++ dollars. Time really flies! Just one more week to go to finish my placement and I'm gonna be here for 3 months on the 8th of December. Can't wait for the 2 weeks break! Gottareally sleep in^^ Gonna turn 18 that time, have to be more mature in all the way, but i just couldn't grow taller again... Sadzzzz>.<
Oopss… It’s been quite a long time I didn’t update my blog, sorry guys… Too much things happened recently, gonna cool down a bit, orientate myself back to the reality. Making myself a bit busy so that I won’t think that much. Getting fever for about 3 days and those moment was kind of blur for me… Probably too much things happening + stress and the weather makes me couldn’t afford.
Yupe… I’m tired! But I know I’m invincible just like ironwoman. I know I can stand up after I cry. So… don’t worry, I’ll be fine. I’ll be stronger than before! I’m pretty sure what am I doing, will fight for what I want.
There’s lots of stuff that I didn’t share out here, too tired and busy, having problems with my internet too… Have my last weekly placement, go harbour town again, celebrating birthday for friends, drink 4 shot of vodka and 2 beer first in my life time and I’m not drunk at all… Somehow I hope that I could forget everything that moment but nt, I cnt slp that night…
幸好那个夜晚是黑暗的，因为那样你就不会看到我脸上的眼泪。
16Nov09
It’s the first day of placement, get a bit nervous. Meet Linda for the first time, she gave me 2 or 3 shower to do on my own. She’s quite good as she will explain and correct me for any mistakes. It’s really tired for the first day as we still don’t used to have shift frm 8am till 4.30pm.
Really have headache after the shift, a bit stress…I’m trying to memorise the name of residents and remember their likes and dislikes. Gonna collect information from the care plan for the case study. Hopefully the time will pass by very fast, couldn’t wait for the shift to off all the time.
Tomorrow gonna be another day again! Gotta work hard and enchance my skills…
18Nov09
It’s just the 3rd day of placement today, and I’m exhausted! Having headache again gosh, I’m gonna crazy then!!! Don’t think I can tolerate anymore without any paracetamol this time. Everyone backat tshung tsin already graduate and having holiday, aikz, miss that! Really miss the time that we laugh together and having fun… I don’t feel like I am myself now.
Somehow, getting a bit quiet compare to before, a bit tired to show a smiling face if you doesn’t feel like. I’m not those person that like to talk a lot, but I’ll join in whatever I can.
Comeon, 12 days to go to finish my placement… Will be having my shift on afternoon tomorrow, from 12.30 till 9pm, tired arh… I need a holiday!!! Need to get a job again when holiday, where is all my holiday gone?? So stress… Summer class coming after that, no holiday at all!
My birthday coming soon, getting older again. Hmm… This is the first time I’m not celebrating birthday way back at home. Haiz… Just wish me luck, I hope that I can do well in my placement and get a job as soon as possible.
19Nov09
It’s the 1st afternoon shift for us, finally get to sleep in a bit more… Paula came to visit us again today, need to do some paperworks and getting some comments from the team leader and senior carers. I’m still alright as I got some positive comment from Rosie… I couldn’t really catch what she want because she always change what she say… Sweat… A bit like mood swings! Haha… After all, still appreciate her for teaching me that much and always give me very good comments for my log book.
Hmm… The 1st afternoon shift was interesting for all of us, probably the most memorable placement for all of us. Non of the batch have blackout at nursing home when having placement, but we do have one… It’s kinda scary, but you’ll need to know how to handle stuff in the dark. Gotta be brave and show a good face eventhough you feel scare. =) Got Iveta’s husband to sent us back because we finish off earlier a bit late and miss the bus.
Eventhough it’s tiring, I’m still enjoying that, pretty sure what am I doing. But I was a bit headache with the older person behaviour, don’t wanna go on bed, verbally aggressive, keep on shouting… Aikz! A bit annoying when a person shouted the same things throughtout your whole shift.
Didn’t see April for quite a while already, miss the time she teach and works with me. She’s really nice, I can even chat with her like a friend.
20Nov09
The last day of first week placement, what a relief, at last we finish our first week. The weather getting started to turn cold again, thank god! The heat is burning my skin… Nothing much for today but just repeating the same routine for afternoon shift. Roughly just getting ready the bed for the residents, toileting, serving and feeding for dinner, getting residents to change their nighties and put them on bed, serving supper and checking on pads.
Comparing the early and late shift, the early shift is more hectic and busy. I get to do more in the morning , I can do 3 shower all by my own, serving and feeding for lunch, afternoon tea, sending residents to activity, and lots of toileting.
I get Rosie to sign me off for some stuff that I’ve done and the comments for the 1st week. I’m happy that she’s happy with my work for the moment.
Today’s the first day we get on bus by ourself during late shift. It’s raining… and we only have 1 umbrella for the four of us. What to do? Run for our life… Haha… =) Having fun when the all of us standing under an umbrella and take photo! It’s kinda scary when we was on the M44 bus, full of aboriginal people, seems like they was a bit drunk, got a bit of verbally aggressive. That’s probably the first time we was out at city during night because we need to transit there. It’s quite complicated as all those clubbing activity was active.
Giving myself some relaxing time after shower, went for supper and talk for about an hour. Getting started on my case study after that since I wasn’t sleepy, managed to jot down points for about 2 papers. Gonna tidy up that later and type it out again, still lack of some information, probably will go and search for it again. Hehe.. Get on bed about 3am^^
21Nov09
It’s Saturday, finally get to rest a bit. Wake up about 12 and have my lunch. Planning to go city because I seriously need stocking as my toes having pressure sore area already. My foot gets very tired after wearing the shoes for that long.
It’s a bit raining, all of them don’t plan to go out. At last just me and chua go out together. We went to woolworth and rundle mall, managed to get my stocking. Hmm… of course gotta refill my food. Get some yoghurt, Tim Tam, watermelon and some drinks. Still got some chips, cookies, tea and instant noodles in my room. All of that is to keep me from getting hungry^^ Go over to The Chemist to get another new bottle of Loreal shampoo for myself, it’s gonna finish very soon. Went to Mc Donald for a meal and ltr on walk to E3 to catch our bus.Back at Hosanna around 6pm.
It’s really fast, the 1st week of placement just finish like that. It wasn’t like what I thought, I thought it will be a hard time. But hey guys, I’m still alive, I have to be strong! Eventhough I’m a girl but I think I can be strong like a guy as well.
There won’t be anything in the coming days, but just my dream to be a RN and specialist in neurology. That’s all I have to think about, I’m not gonna involve with any other things else beside my work and studies.
Don’t worry on how am I doing, I won’t give up that easily! Studies is the only things that I could hold on now. Go for it or else you will regret… I always remember what you say daddy, this is what I choose, I will prove to everyone that I can do it, I won’t want myself to regret.
Somehow, I’ve never say something like I miss you daddy before in my life. I never thought of I will miss you that much when I was here. Sometimes when I recalled my childhood, the moment that you spent with me was really memorable. I remember that you came to school during breakfast time when I was primary one for the first month just because you worried I don’t know how to buy food on my own. I always got nice food for lunch when primary 5 and 6 because you buy and sent it over to me, that’s what makes everyone envy of. I still remember that I celebrate my 9 years old brithday for three times in that year. When I have to finish my work till midnight, you will stay with me sometimes eventhough you are really tired. Sometimes I really agree with what the others said, daddy really spoilt me. You really try your best to get what I want. Hehe… And you bring me to eat whatever food that mommy don’t let me to eat^^Kakaka…
Hmm… I only get to listen to your voice after about 1 month I’m here. For that moment, in the bottom of my heart, I really feel like… I never know I will miss you that much. That’s probably the happiest moment because at the same time I get to chat with my dad, mom and brother. I love you guys! And of course my sister!… I spent about 45 dollars talking to phone with her for an hour that day=)
It's the 2nd last week for our weekly placement in Ananda, just one more week to go and here it comes our daily placement for 3 weeks. Just got our shift that day, will be having early shift for mon to wed and late shift for thurs and fri. Gotta be really prepare for that!
I'm having fun today, get to shower one resident all by myself in Yarra and later on got swap over to Swan as Chua wanna have a try at Ananda 1. I get to follow Charlene at Swan, she's really nice! I enjoy the work at there... Just that feeling a bit bad that i wasn't in Yarra with April, I'll go back to her next week since she's been teaching me all the way until now. I guess she's happy that Charlene said I've done well there.
From swaping over, I really get to know the difference between Ananda 1 and 2. You've got to deal with all kind of behaviours and dementia person there. Eventhough it's tiring, but I do enjoy the day, and I know this is what i want. I meant this is something demanding but I ready to work for it, just wanna help out what I could.
Gonna go to city again tomorrow^^ Hmm... Lots stuff to buy, gonna really buy some food so that i won't get hungry when placement. And... I've got lots of presents to buy, everyone having birthday almost the same time. Working hard on my Aspire Book and assignment last few days, Hooray! I finished everything now and could just relax, the others still working hard...Hehe^^ Well, this is just the beginning, when it's diploma it gotta be like mountain!
30Oct09 It’s the 5th visit to Ananda, I’m still in Yarra Wing, probably will get to swap over to Swan for the next visit. Nothing much actually, just doing the personal care like normal. It’s me and Geraldine camwhoring in the toilet of Ananda. I clipped up my fringe so that it’ll look tidier.
This is my first coke in Adelaide, don’t really like coke but I guess I need some sugar once in a while. No doubt! Girls need a lot of sugar to stay happy!
I’m tired! Just look at my facial expression… I really wish that I can have a holiday nw…
31Oct09 It’s Saturday and it’s Halloween Day! Went out with Geraldine, Chua, Caroline, Helen and Kong. Our first destination is IKEA I bought something lovely! Here’s the heart shape soft toy, its 1 dollar for two of that.
Later on we headed to Harbour Town, there’s really lots stuff over there… Hmm… would really like to go there again next time. Have my first Subway here! Try the one with roast beef and bacon, yummy! Believe me, I can finish the foot long bun all by myself! Don’t look down on small and tiny person.
It’s Halloween Day, didn’t really celebrate but there’s all together 14 of us which went to have a walk at Morialta Park on the day before during night. I have some fun but it’s quite scary… The Korean exchange student Ahm, actually bought a big pumpkin. He traced something on it and dig out all the flesh.
We went to the beach without any planning, and this time it’s Glenelg! The beach that I went to when orientation day. Still prefer this compare to the Marino Beach that we went last week… We did a lot of crazy stuff, but sadly there’s only 6 of us all together, it’ll be more fun if more people come with us.
I guess I'm really homesick now, everything just push me over the edge... I'm tired and i'm not invincible! Yupe! I wanna go home, i wanna go home! I miss my bed, i miss my room that i could cry all the way as i like.
Everyone keep telling me that they have faith in me that i could overcome all the circumstance and challenges. I know I'm not that strong, I'm just pretending all the time. It's actually that i make myself to look strong in front of everyone. Nothing much I could do, I just wanna know when can I go home???
Well... Ignore me... I'm just grumbling around, that's the way i could let out eveything. I didn't meant to make anyone to worry about me. I'm sorry for making everyone worry about me. I don't know what can I do, somehow i really wish that i could drop on the bed and never wake up again for the entire of my life. Or could time stop by?
I'm tired mentally... It's placement in 2 weeks time and it's summer class after this. Everything just come over all in once. I really need something to hold on.
