Life as we know

I have no idea what do I really want to write here. The only thing I know is things are loading up my brain capacity. I've been thinking a lot on questions that I would never and ever figure out on my own. Yes, I care! But do you?

Don't ask me what it is if you know me well. Life is complicated as we know, after all, it's just like a hide and seek. You'll never get what you want when you desperately want to find it out, it will come to you when you think it's time to give up. But you'll never figure out the time frame. So what can I do?

Seriously, being really honest to everyone. I'm not really into working, I have the passion of working as a carer and being a nurse. I love and enjoy working. But I don't like the way of working day and night like crazy. I'm not after anything at all. In fact, that's the only way I could keep myself busy and not to think about anything, because I'm tired after all.

I'm tired of being in that way. I'm not trying to push anything, and I didn't even dare to, because I don't wanna lose anything. Everything I have and own now is too precious, I can't afford losing any of them. I try my best to cherish everything but somehow there's time that I think it's hard to hang on there. For what reason it is?

Okay! I know... Just let it be. Like a hide and seek. I'll probably figure out sometime in the future. I'm alright, just grumble again. I'm fine, just back to class again this week. So my horrible so called 'holiday' ends. I worked for 80+ hrs in 2 weeks and with the addition of assignments, I'm totally worned out. Sometimes I felt left out, when I really wanna talk, no one really cares. Yes, I'm mad. When I just don't feel like talking, you all will question why is it I didn't call.

Time flies! The first week of class after holiday ends.. It's about another 4 weeks to go for the aged care placement. It's time to adjust myself to the new routine again.