Reflection of 2010,

From the onset of summer class, joining of D12 & 13, and there it starts my life of taking Diploma of Nursing. I know it's a no turning choice which I made by myself. Even though life is hard, I have to go on, to leave no regrets by deciding my own path. I won't give up, because I'm determine to reach what I want.

From sending every resume, receiving no replies and till the day that I received call for interview. I consider myself as lucky! Everyone stands an equal chance and all just depends on your resume and first impression. Receiving contract of employment and having hard time coping with new environment, and up till today being the baby girl in workplace which everyone being really good to me. Thanks a lot for everyone in The Bentleigh, and thank god for giving all of these to me.

It's really good being able to afford my own living and rewarding myself a trip to Melbourne. Once upon a time, I never thought I would be able to make it up to this point. The trip to Melbourne is such a great trip for me to release all the stress that's been building up over the year. I couldn't get home but at least I could get away from study and work for just a few days.

The life after that is all about assignment and work which really drives me crazy. I admit I'm such a workaholic, I never let go a single chance of being able to work hard. Somehow I always think that there's part of me that was insane. I'm glad that I reach one of my goal of never ever having to delay my work. I can sacrifice my sleeping time to finish off all of my assignment even though I knew extension of due date is acceptable. I can't tolerate with myself for being lazy. This is what I want and there isn't any single chance that I would like to let myself down. Everyone keeps telling me, RELAX! A rubber band will tear apart if too much force is exerted on it.

The life after that is all about the crucial moment of 160 hours aged care placement. Placement is the great timing to gain knowledge and experience and it's the moment which I suffer the most. I have placement during weekdays and work during weekend. Being a student is hard especially when your luck doesn't go the way it suppose to be. It's a hard time and the moment which I become really emotional. I have the passion of being a nurse but I tend to built up relationship with the residents once I get along with them. The hardest part of this job is actually seeing someone you've been taking care of suffering and struggling from death. Nothing in the scope of your work is expectable. There's pros and cons by making your work interesting but full of 'surprises'!!

Dear Harrold,

It's been only few weeks of knowing you but your character and personality leave me a good impression. It's going to be a good memory for me talking to you when giving medication and taking you out for a cigarette. I still remember how excited you are trying to tell me a good news, and those moment when we're counting airplanes up in the sky when you're smoking. I love the way when you just don't want to take up our time but we really worried about you.

Ps:Rest in peace and you'll always be one of the most special person I've taken care of.

There's joy and tears in this 160 hours placement. I'm glad that I could get through that with positive feedback. I turned 19 on the 15th December 2010. Honestly, I've been wanting to celebrate my birthday at home. But I had the greatest birthday ever in my life. I received 130++ birthday wishes on facebook, birthday wishes through sms and phone calls from Malaysia. I received birthday wishes and presents from colleagues, course mate and etc. I still work on my birthday and feels great receiving heaps of wishes when I'm working even from the site manager. I had a great dinner with colleagues with all kind of nice dishes. I went for clubbing for the first ever time in my life. Even though 15December is over, but I still receive belated birthday wishes and presents until now. It's finally time to go HOME after 15 months. I wonder how did I make through all of the homesick moment when I'm really down. I've probably used few boxes of tissues and wetting my pillow and hugging my teddy over the night. I've been keeping myself single again over the year after the previous relationship. I feel sorry for all the rejection that I've made, I never really try to open up a space by accepting someone in this year. But Hey! I'm really back at home, no kidding... and it's real!

As a conclusion, I'm grateful for meeting so many great people in my life trying to guide me and get me through those hard time. There's still so much obstacles to go through and uncountable goals to achieve. Heaps of improvement on myself and overall, it's an AWESOME Year of 2010!

Goals for 2011=)

-Be more hardworking, never try to be lazy

-Stay healthy

-Must get IELTS 7 to register with the Nursing Board

-Appreciate everyone in my life especially my lovely family and people who love me

-Work hard but give myself some moment to de-stress

-Start my savings and plan ahead for my degree studies

-Open up a space for someone special which I could rely on

-Never give up under any circumstances

-Laugh till the blast and live everyday to full

-Be grateful on what I have and own

对，我是回来了，那又如何？其实，有些事情还是没有任何变化。不晓得怎么说，拉拉扯扯的未知数，对我来说，只是一个负担。我想说，可以不要再拉扯，过彼此心里想要的吗？不要犹豫，不要害怕，就那么一次。除了以微笑待人，我应该还如何？与其继续现在这样，不如让我好过一点。

我可以坚强，但我也有脆弱的时候，我和普通女生没有分别，即使你认为自己有多了解我，其实也不过是如此。

人类可以很现实，现实得残酷。可是我无法如你一般的现实。我明白人生很残酷，我看的也许无法与经验老道的人比较，但至少，跟我年龄相同的比起，我明白人生和珍惜该如何运用。就因为我知道人生很残酷，所以没有必要过得很现实。其实最重要的还是很努力的过好每一天，没有遗憾，没有叹息。我们总是说，明天和意外究竟谁会先到来。

如果你能够亲自站旁观者的位置目睹一个人无法逃出鬼门关，从好好的今天，到失去所有的明天，一直到无法再撑下去的一天，你就会明白为什么人生不应该是现实的。其实最重要的，是懂得如何珍惜。

其实我一直在想自己是否适合这份工作？我可以拥有无比的胆量，但却如此的情绪化，对我来说，人与人彼此建立的感情，是最珍贵的。我害怕生命的脆弱，我很念旧，我很容易感动。但...我没有把它当一份工作，却只是我人生经历。从老人家身上学习到的，绝对在书本上看不到的。自己用心体验的，是用语言也无法表达的经历，但却让你成长。

I'm back in KK at last... but, Geez... Why is KK so hot? It's even hotter when it rains. I just feel like I could barely survive>< I guess it's probably too long since I left this place, I'm trying to get used to the people, places and weather. It's great to be home, but it wasn't like what I've expected.

I'm back for like 5 days, and what I've been wanting is just sleep! I'm just feeling so tired after all, no matter how much I sleep, I just wanna sleep. Guess I'm turning into a pig soon. OMG! I gotta lose weight as well, I've been gaining so much when I'm in Australia.

Hehe... and I cut my hair! It's like back to original again, but i dye it with different colour this time. It's not very obvious but only when under light.

Hey, Merry Christmas aye=) Surprisingly, I miss Adelaide! I guess I'm used to the life there.. Anyway, I'll just enjoy my holiday here and take as much rest as possible. I know there won't be time for resting when I'm back, it's gonna be time to work hard again.

Yeah! I'm currently at Perth International Airport, trying to make through another 5 hours as my flight is 6.35am and it's only like 1.13am now. Only sleep for an hour or so yesterday as I was busy with packing and worrying about my overweight luggage!

I guess I'm probably having a little bit of jet lag eventhough there's only like 2 and a half hours difference from Adelaide. It's kinda weird, I had breakfast in Adelaide airport but when I reach Perth it's only about 8 something. So we had another breakfast again><

Perth seems kinda bored for me, I still love Adelaide eventhough it's quiet and peaceful. One thing that I hate the most is the weather, it is so damn hot in Perth. I'm still wondering if i could survive in Malaysia in that kind of tropical weather. Adelaide has been cool! It's summer now but the average temperature won't normally go up to 25 degree celcius. It just feels like spring instead of Summer=D

OMG! I just can't believe that I'm going back=) I'm so excited but yet now I hate getting on a plane. I might have to spend like 6 and a half hour sitting on my bottom later. And i just spend 3 and a half hour sitting on my bottom from Adelaide to Perth this morning. I'm tired now as well, gotta spend so much time awake! Hopefully i can sleep for the 6 and a half hour later=D

I'm looking forward to meet lots of people when i get back=)

Whatever it is! But greatz! I'm pissed off.. Like never ever before, I didn't show that I'm mad doesn't means that things can go on. I'll get angry too! Once is okay, twice is alright, three times could still be tolerate. But not if it goes on and on and on. There's lots of things that I don't care, but mind your words, think about how would you feel, it's easy to say but are you sure that you're gonna react in the same way if the same thing happenend to you?

Okay... It's about 14 months... I've tried my best not to even get mad like I used to be at home. I cried like crazy because I could only put in on myself, and it's all keeping there. All of those frustration and hard time that i never speak up. It's not because I don't mind. But stop thinking that because I don't mind then it's okay to take advantage on me.

I feel so bad when I finally can't stand it anymore. I didn't mean to burst it out. I'm so sorry. After all I could only hold it back and keep it to myself. I still couldn't get through myself, I still couldn't speak out what is it like for me. I still couldn't cry as I needed a shoulder in front of a person.

I'm okay as always. Just gonna switch off the light, tuck myself in the blanket and hug my teddy tight again.

It's the first day of Diploma aged care placement, and I'm back again to Ananda. To the same place, to the same wing. But there's surely things that was different, there's only about 5 resident that was still remaining in the same wing, I guess the rest was being transferred and R.I.P.

How should I say how is it like for this placement? I'll probably discuss it further more in the coming days, I've still got 19 days to go. For the first day, I'm just getting used to the medication round and route of administration drug. I'm glad that I get to do some obs like BP, BGL and SpO2. Somehow, I actually do prefer to work with someone which have more experience.

OMG! It's only the first day of placement, but I'm feeling so tired. Now I'm wondering that is working on the weekend a good choice? I would probably be really exhausted by the time when everything is finish. It's such a torture when I have to wake up 5 something in the morning when I'm so tired. It's okay anyway, that's what we call life. All I wanted to do when I'm back from placement is just sleep, hardly have any energy to do anything. Anyway, I just wanna learn as much as possible and have fun for the placement.Fingers crossed that everyday is gonna be better.

很多人都在不停的问我，为什么不要交男朋友？再不然就总是不相信我没有男朋友。其实就算要解释我也说了很多遍，也没有必要再去强调了。也有人说，身边那么多人，为什么你就没有考虑接受他们，要求别放得太高。其实我没有任何的要求，只有适不适合。其实应该说很久前，我就开始把人距以千里之外，也许害怕了吧，就只想过好自己的生活。对不起，也许你一直想努力的走到我的生活里，可是一直就只是站在门前进不来。

我总在说，日子很忙碌，我没有时间谈这些。老实说，是不是借口我也不晓得。对，我的确是忙，可是也许也有逃避的成分存在。我只是知道，我什么都不想去在意，只能够把顺其自然挂在嘴边。也许有天吧，我会找到不再逃避的理由，会找到一个值得我的珍惜的人。

Yeap, It's such a relieve to finish my Mental Health assignments in a week time. I wonder how many hours did I slept for these few days after working a night shift and staying late for assignment every night. I'm worn out and exhausted, I really was. I was stressed up and wanted to talk to someone, but somehow it's always the wrong timing, everyone was so busy and stressed up with exam too=(

It's alright, I'll be telling you I'm okay, but I doubt about the fact. There it go when I rely so much on my teddy again, I just need to hug you tight.

It's a great relieve for not having anything bothering me, I can look forward for placement and continue with my working with no worries. I'll try my best, make myself busy so that my brain is fully occupied. I'm really nearly there, just about 35 days to go. Sounds great aye?=D

I seems to be letting go pretty good, at least I think it's good for me. Living my own life is what I want after all. Did I changed after being here? Yeah, I think I'm more mature with thinking and realise how realistic is people in the society. Honestly, I hate it. I wish I could live in a fairy tale with no devil around. No one is perfect, perfect is simply just imperfection. Think about how perfect you are before trying to pick on others weakness. Don't be so picky as people will be picking on you too=D

I'm looking forward to go home. After all, don't freak out on my changes. I'll still look like little girl but I've grown up with all the tears. People says that you're never gonna be alone, but believe me, somehow or sometime in our life, we are alone. It just depends how do you look at it.

Just live to the full, cry to the hardest and laugh to the blast. Live everyday as it's gonna be the last day, no one knows whether tomorrow or accident come first.

Hmm, I came to this point and started to wonder again. I get a bit unhappy and angry with it. Maybe deep inside my heart, I care about it. But something come across my mind, if you don't care, I won't give a damn thing from now on. Maybe, that thought won't last long, as I changed my mind most of the time on these things.

But I did it for the first time, I didn't want to do anything about it. I just wanna see how is it like for you? For everything I did, being honest, I don't have an obligation to do so. I do it because I care, I thought I'll get back what I deserve, but it doesn't seems to work like this. Appreciate it if you mean it. Stop being grandiose, you might be nothing to someone. Somehow, I might be wrong, I don't mind to accept that.

Okay?! What's wrong with me now? I've never thought that this way of thinking will appear now, but I guess that after watching Charlie St. Cloud, this should be implement here. Live, Love and Let go.

Worth it or not? Let the time decide, I'll just wait until I figure out what is it all about. Did I changed? Or I'm beaten by your realistic thought? I'm not realistic at all, I still want to believe in fairy tale. I work hard for what I want, and I think in the way of needing to accept the reality due to life, not because of being realistic.

Seriously, should I be happy or sad? I'm going home soon, but I'm gonna have my placement real soon, in just 2 weeks time. I'm stressed out now, SERIOUSLY!!

Now I started to wonder myself, what's the matter with me? Okay! I have class the whole day on Thursday,did a night shift after that, have class for whole day on Friday, attend a friend's birthday party, off to work again at night, slept for the whole afternoon after back from work, off to work on Saturday night again. I know... I messed up my life. I slept like 3 hours in two days time. Now, I got this weird sleeping pattern. I'll be alright, went for gym this afternoon, hopefully I'm tired enough to sleep early tonight, I'm off to work again tomorrow morning.

Somehow, I'm just kind of in love with night shift. Night shift seems good for me. No rush and seems peaceful. I don't find any problems with it, I'm alright to stay awake throughout the night. I know it's kind of creepy, and it can be bad too sometimes. I know it's not good for health having those messed up sleeping pattern.

Thinking of work, I'm just worried and stressed out. I'm afraid that I couldn't finish off on time. I'm only there for 3-4 days in a week. I'm doing morning, afternoon and night shifts.. Kind of like a mixture. It's really hard to figure out how things really work in every shift. People come and go, routine changes and updated. There is just so much things to take up.

Somehow, I have study and assignments to catch up as well. You just don't feel like dealing with it especially after work, all I know is I'm damn tired. The only thing I could do to deal with heavy assignments was just stay up the whole night, no matter what, I have to finish it!

I'm currently up to the topic about Mental Health. It's an interesting topic, but it's not my cup of tea. The more I get to know about Mental Health, I get to suspect that I have those mental problems. Despite, it makes me think that everyone have mental problems. Just that we're just mild, not that serious to be concern.

Until now... There's still things that I can't figure out. Anyway, I shouldn't care that much, let it be right? But I wonder why, when I don't wanna care, it comes to me. When I care about it soooo much, I couldn't even figure out what. Is it like a games?

I know, I have to be strong, need to hang on there, I'm nearly there right? =)

我还真的不晓得自己最近怎么了？压力吧...课业有压力，工作更有压力，还有自己解决不了的问题，我觉得自己快发疯了！

也许我不曾发现，在某些方面，我像是个完美主义者。我很努力的想要做好每一件事，可是我并不完美。即使受了委屈我又能如何，我并没有想要回应的打算。我只有一个请求，不要再增加我的负担，不要再增加我的压力，让我有个依靠，好吗？

微笑不代表我真的很开心，有时候想掩饰真正的自己，也不想影响别人的情绪。我不晓得反驳，因为要比吵架，我不可能会赢。今天工作后，我真的超想哭，可是我不能让眼泪流下，要坚强不是吗？有时候，处处为人着想，站在别人的观点上思考，那我自己呢？我忘了我自己。我对着大家笑得灿烂，可是我没有笑给自己看。

果然我还是忍不住了。哥，我好想念你，你还是和以前一样那么的幽默，总是逗我笑。但这回我哭了，因为你说很久没有抱我了，就算要倒下，也要等到回家才行，因为你会替我人工呼吸！加上今天工作的压力，和一切的一切，我竟然哭得稀里哗啦...就像个小孩一样！你说，两个月很短，我相信你，会坚持走下去！

Guess what? They are my family in Adelaide. Well, I bought 2 of them here, 2 in Melbourne and one of the panda was given by my sister. When I feel down, I hug them tight. There is a saying that, when everything else fails, hug you teddy. A teddy will always care, no matter what. At least it works for me, I hug my teddy when I feel like crying. Sorry for wetting you guys, but I love you all=)

I know I might be childish, I do believe in fairytale. I named all of them and each of them represent a character in my family. The biggest teddy which apparently look darker is my dad(Gullivan), the one beside was my mom(Little Chu Chu), the panda was my sister (Tarepanda), the little on in the middle is me (Zac) and the one beside me is my brother (Winter Bear).

You can laugh as you like, I'm kind of like a little children aye? Hehe... They sleep with me everyday, unless I'm working night shift, I'm so gonna miss them! I always hug the big teddy (Daddy) when I sleep or talking on the phone. Hmm... Someone might wonder how does the teddy look like? Here a photo=)

Hmm, it's Spring now! The weather is getting warmer and seems great for me. But... Sometimes it's kind of too hot. I'm feeling suffocated and sweat like a pig during work. Well, the cherry blossom season was over, and here's the blooming cheery blossom. This is where I live, isn't that lovely? The sun strike and the cherry blossom was blooming gracefully!

There isn't much things happening around recently. Maybe yea, but I don't remember for the moment. It's about 3 weeks to go for my first aged care placement. I'm still wondering where am I gonna have my placement. That is not the most exciting part, it is... Just about less than 2 months to go, and I'm gonna be home! *Hooray!!!*

I'm looking forward for everything now. I'm gonna be busy next week onwards, I've got 3 nighshift in a row and a friend birthday to attend. My colleagues is planning for a day to hang out together. It's gonna be fun, eventhough I have quite a lot of age difference with them, but that's aright. OMG! I'm really looking forward for the first social outing for The Bentleigh! It's a must to join! That's probably my first ever social function here, and not with friends, with all of my colleagues. I have no idea how is the social function here.

I'm having my placement on that period but I might be able to make good use of my time and fit everything in. Just less than 2 months time for my first ever trip to home. I've been pushing hard all the way, the remaining 2 months will be the same. I'm not gonna lay back, I'm so gonna keep going. Well, I'm gonna grumble that I'm tired, but no worries, I'll be alright after spurting out my tiredness.

Cheers guys=)

I watched Charlie St. Cloud just now, one word to described, 'AWESOME'!! It's really worth watching. For those who thinks that you're probably lost somewhere in your life, watch this. You'll figure what things means in your life. I'm not after Zac Efron after all, so that's not the main point that I'm eyeing on this movie. Yeah right, he's good looking but that's not the main point in this movie. I saw the trailer when I watched 'Going the Distance' last time.

Well, it was so damn touching. It's about the value of relationship between brothers and your love one. It was about live, love and let go. When we live on we get involved with love, when dealing with love, there's time that we actually have to let go. Let go, because we need to go on. If you're given the second chance of live, it really means something. I cried like crazy in the cinema.

Maybe I've really seen how precious life is when dealing with death at work. Part of the reason that I would actually love being a nurse was being able to deal with people's life experience and learn from them. Everyone single one of them have their stories and it's really interesting. After all, it still depends on how do you look at things. Put your heart in there and you might be able to discover something.

I wonder why, but I've been writing a lot recently. I have no idea where to splash out all those thoughts in my mind. The only way was just write in down.

At some point, I really do understand that there's things that I need to let go. It's not that I can't make it. But, there's things that was not sure. Do I really know what I want? It's gonna take some time. Stop playing around, stop coming to me when I'm at the edge of making it through, be honest to yourself, make things clear please. There's a lot of things that I actually don't mind but it really doesn't mean I don't care.

I would actually love to watch Charlie St. Cloud again=)

Oh yeah *claps*... It's exactly 2 months time to go, and I'll be back at home! It's not I wanted to go home, but desperately!! I guess lots people was gonna turn crazy if they're not back home for more than a year. I'm not crazy yet, but I get kinda homesick and feels exhausted. There's no way for me to kind of like relax if I'm here, I couldn't figure out, but I'm pushing myself real hard here.

Work was kind of stress recently. There's lots of 'happening' things which changes the atmosphere of the working place. I'm worried that I couldn't finish on time, as I'm hopping all around recently, with all the residents that I've never did before. I'm glad that everything turn out to be fine, but I'm feeling so tired. My back and muscles was achingly pain, I guess I hurt myself during work. Geezz... Why are the old people so heavy? Or I'm a little tiny baby?

Oh! My soul's gone somewhere. Haha... Imagining all the happening and wonderful time I'm gonna have in 2 months time. Well, I GOTTA get through the placement first! I wonder where I'm gonna end up, just pray hard it's not gonna be where I don't want to.

I'm trying to make myself not to think so much recently. I'm tired, I just wanna sleep, I'm busy and that's it. I'm kind of mad on something, you know what? I don't hate you, not at all, but for your goodness sake, I don't give a damn thing on you, instead... You're the one who make things hard. Or did you really want me to tell you the truth? I don't care what do you wanna do, but don't be childish. Maybe I'm blind sometime before this, but I thought at some point we've spoken it clear enough.

And for some other reason, I'm mad too... I'm sorry for not being there on time my friend. Like what I said, put your feet in others shoes before pointing your fingers everywhere. You're smart all the time but not this time. Dig a hole to protect your precious but you're trap in there too. Sit back and think carefully before trying to compare a friend that you knew over a year and another which you knew just a few months ago. Sorry means nothing my dear! Be sincere if you really wanna apologize. Yea, that's right. Apology can be accepted but the harm being caused couldn't be neglected. Do you seriously think it's worth doing that, I'm sorry to say that you're stubborn instead of genius this time. Well, that might be your own value of life and I'm not gonna judge it according to my point of view.

Alright! I need to stop with that! Otherwise my anger would never stop! Hmm... I'm working tomorrow, hope everything's gonna be fine=) I'm gonna watch 'Charlie St. Cloud' after work tomorrow! I'm being good to myself recently, work hard, study hard and big treat for myself!

Anyway, OMG! Congrats to LCW, KKK/TBH, KKK/CEH and WMC! You guys did well hey! I can't believe I watch it live online... I used up a big amount of my internet data, but that's alright, I'm happy! It was tremendous to see KKK/TBH in action, you guys are so dramatic mann! I love those action and funny facial expression, it's AWESOME! Eventhough WMC only manage to get a silver medal, but cheer up girl, we know you did well! You tried your best! Hmm... I'm really curious about the happy ending of the relationship between LCW and WMC! Is it true? By the way, I always thought the breakup was some kind of distraction so people won't concentrate on the relationship instead of badminton. After all, I still think they are perfect match, lovely couple=) All the best yeah! I'm looking forward for the coming Asian Games! It seems a bit hard as the host country was China, they might have the advantage of being a host country.

I have no idea what do I really want to write here. The only thing I know is things are loading up my brain capacity. I've been thinking a lot on questions that I would never and ever figure out on my own. Yes, I care! But do you?

Don't ask me what it is if you know me well. Life is complicated as we know, after all, it's just like a hide and seek. You'll never get what you want when you desperately want to find it out, it will come to you when you think it's time to give up. But you'll never figure out the time frame. So what can I do?

Seriously, being really honest to everyone. I'm not really into working, I have the passion of working as a carer and being a nurse. I love and enjoy working. But I don't like the way of working day and night like crazy. I'm not after anything at all. In fact, that's the only way I could keep myself busy and not to think about anything, because I'm tired after all.

I'm tired of being in that way. I'm not trying to push anything, and I didn't even dare to, because I don't wanna lose anything. Everything I have and own now is too precious, I can't afford losing any of them. I try my best to cherish everything but somehow there's time that I think it's hard to hang on there. For what reason it is?

Okay! I know... Just let it be. Like a hide and seek. I'll probably figure out sometime in the future. I'm alright, just grumble again. I'm fine, just back to class again this week. So my horrible so called 'holiday' ends. I worked for 80+ hrs in 2 weeks and with the addition of assignments, I'm totally worned out. Sometimes I felt left out, when I really wanna talk, no one really cares. Yes, I'm mad. When I just don't feel like talking, you all will question why is it I didn't call.

Time flies! The first week of class after holiday ends.. It's about another 4 weeks to go for the aged care placement. It's time to adjust myself to the new routine again.

我看我真的疯了！现在早上10点半了，我已经工作了一整晚，现在却坐在电脑前打着字。也许是因为我把功课都赶完了，真的...松了一口气！前三晚，我都是早上5点半才入眠，白天和黑夜，傻傻分不清楚。

说心底话，我无论是身体上还是心理上都疲惫不堪了。我很努力的在撑着，你知道吗？就算我真的哭了，不是我脆弱了，只是我坚持了太久。很多事情，我对于自己，过度的执著了。对于自己要求高，真的会把自己逼疯！无论是工作还是可以课业，我不要求100分，因为没有完美的存在。但是，一定要达到我的目标。即使把自己累坏了，我还是不愿意放弃。

有人说，难道我就不懂得为自己着想吗？很多事情我都不介意，不介意多做，也不介意得到些什么，也许我就真的没有想很多。

刚刚把‘谈情说爱’看完了！只能说是赞！可是，真的好无奈，为什么人总是在失去后才明白拥有的幸福。爱情，有时候真的是天意弄人。其实这，让我想起你。我忘了从什么时候开始，听到你的声音，对我而言，是最大的安慰。有些事情，我从来都没告诉你，谢谢你在我最无助的时候帮我熬了过来。然而，很多事情我都弄不明白。所谓的火，总是燃烧在我脑袋里，所谓的不完美，到底是我猜测的那样吗？

现在我终于懂得累，想要睡觉了。

Okay, it's sem break again! Should I be excited or sad? Excited for not having to go to lectures... Sad in the way that it's all about assignments and works? and being honest, this is not a holiday kay...

I'm feeling kinda weird recently. I guess I've been thinking too much! And that eventually gonna drive me crazy. I wish I'm a mind reader, but I'm not. I think I'm strong enough to hold on that, but apparently I have no idea what's gonna happen in the future. I might be able to hold on all the way, but there's a time limit. I need a bit of confidence and making sure that this is not an endless wait ay? I'm sure I'll be able to make it if I know what does it means. Guess what? This just makes me feel like I'm hanging in the middle of nowhere.

You won't believe what is the most wonderful things for me now. It is actually waking up in the morning and realize that I'm one day closer to go home=) It's not that I don't like the life and everything here, but my battery gonna turn flat soon. I need recharging!

I guess the thing that I actually need to learn was giving myself a break. Seems like everyone totally agree that I've been pushing too hard on myself. I really get what you mean. I know you're worried about me. You said I'm kind of like a workaholic, I wonder, am I? But I do feel weird when I'm not tired and not working on that day too. Maybe I just love my life being busy? In that way, time actually flies!

I didn't mean anything with this. I'm trying to remains silence all these while but it doesn't mean i don't care. I don't mind to let people know about my life, it's all my thought and how I get through all those wonderful and tough moment. But, I don't need anyone to comment on what's right or wrong. Perhaps I need a little bit of freedom on how I handle my life. When I'm stressed up, I just wanna be insane for that moment with all of my friends. Just laugh and cry as I like, that's the point. Somehow, things that matter was not how people look at you, but how you look at yourself. What you think was actually the reflection of your mind.

The first week of the holiday is coming to an end. I've still got one more assignment to go, and lots of day of working. Hmm... I just feel like talking now, can I?

感觉上，我快要搞不清楚自己脑袋里装什么了。你知道吗？我好想念你，也好想家。可是，事实是我必须接受大家日子都过得好忙碌。这段时间里，其实我总是在想，你想说的到底是什么？至于跟我估计的是否一样？有些话，真的说不出口，但我又能如何？我能够做的都尽力了，剩下的只是在等时间过。

还有86天，我才能再次回到远方的家。你们说，我看起来过得很好。我过得不好时，你们却没有发现。在这里1年多了，我真正为自己放假的日子，十根手指头真的数的来。所谓的学院假期，是我再次拼搏的时候。我没有怨天尤人，路是我选的，梦想是我追求的。有时候我总是在抱怨着，可是我不是都熬过去了吗？

当我开始抱怨的时候，你知道我需要的是什么吗？不是你的意见批评，这些我都受够了，我只是想要你告诉我，你会在我身边支持我，为我加油，就只是如此的简单。我以为离开了家，会得到我向往的自由，我盼望已久的没有拘束。可是，我还是得不到！我不介意你关心我的人生，不介意你的唠叨，可是我真的不需要你再告诉我在你观点里什么是不对的。

人往往会认为别人看不起自己，因为是你自己先看不起自己。我没有那个惯性告诉别人心里想什么，所以我用写的。我在每一件事上都尽我所能了，可是我不是铁人，也许你认为我太拼了，那就由我吧，因为你总是说我很固执对吧！至少我清楚知道什么时候真的应该停止。

中秋节快了哦！我真的好想家。月圆，但人却没有团圆。希望在另一方的你，会有个美好的中秋节，我们看见的月亮应该会是一样圆的吧！

Okay! I guess I haven't been disppearing for a long time aye?? Hehe... I was just busy with heaps of assignments and work. It's tiring... I mean really! I did a few night shift and went back to class the next day, it was kind of like feeling restless for the whole day. I need to keep moving during class just to make me stay awake. You'll know how it feels like when you work from 11pm to 6.30am, get back and have a shower, have a half an hour nap and get back to class from 9am till 4.30pm. I guess I'm alright managing it, but somehow I'm still not a Superwoman aye? I'm just trying to do whatever I can.

I know lots of you are gonna nag at me. I don't need that, it's more than enough. Just let me know that you care and will be there for me. That's the best gift to me=) All of that was stressful and more than enough to be added in my life. I know what am I doing and I'm trying my very best.

Anyway, I went to CINEMA today!! I've been wanting to watch 'Going the Distance' all these while. My dream came true! OMG!! I think it was awesome and good=) It was funny and meaningful, especially for couples that was currently in long distance relationship. I think long distance is gonna work actually. It's not gonna be easy but somehow if they manage to get through everything, it's gonna last forever. Sometimes, being in distance makes the connection better because you'll talk a lot over the phone, there's things that you won't talk about if you're being together everyday. Anyway, you need lots of effort and leaps of faith to get there=) and of course with the same commitment! Hahaha... Don't lose to distance as that's not your enemy, go for it and left no regret.

Honestly, that movie makes me thinking about lots of things. It's kind of touching too especially on the moment that they're gonna leave. Nothing is impossible, LOVE is just the same too=)

Time flies aye?? =S It's just exactly 90 days to go and I'm going HOME! OMG O.O I can't wait to go back... Seriously looking forward for that. I'm wondering is there gonna be any changes when I'm back this trip. I wish there is, but of course it's gonna be what I've been wanting. I just wish that what you wanted to say what the same like in my mind. There's things that should be spoken out aye? I don't want to come back to Adelaide with my mind and heart full of questions again =S My life ain't gonna be good in that way. It's gonna be great if I can give myself some confidence. In the other way, I'm afraid it's not what i thought. I gotta think of the worst part too right? It's not a habit anymore, I guess in somewhere or sometime, it becomes part of my life. I can't do anything, I'm just waiting for the time to lead me over to the next step.

Time to sleep aye? I'm soooo tired... and the damn migraine that was bothering me the whole day. Gotta take medicine..=( I'll have to work again tomorrow, kinda worry how's the allocation? Pray hard=)

Hey yeah! How's everyone doing there? I'm fine here... At least I'm still holding on here. I can't figure out what's in my mind and what do I really want. Okay! I gotta admit that people could interfere and mess up my mind easily.

Could you believe that? It's September now! Winter is over and Spring is here... Hell yeah! It doesn't feel like Spring at all now. So damn freezing cold! The wind are getting stronger and the rain just never stop. I just wanna hug my Teddy and stay in my bed the whole day=) I have another Teddy again, one that makes me feel warm during night. Teddy is my best friend for now, he'll listen to what's in my mind, he won't comment on anything, but I can hug him tight.

I just don't want to keep on repeating that I'm tired and stressful. I'm tired of saying that too. If you know me well, take a look on my face, the smile that took me so much effort to keep it on. It's not that I'm not happy and grateful with what I have now. But honestly, you won't know how it is because you are not me. I know I have to be stronger and I've been telling myself all the time. I doubt? Am I working hard enough to get there? There's just so much things to worried about.

Thanks for everyone that was back there, trying hard to give me support. I appreciate it, but somehow, I'm still alone here. I'm counting the days here, there's 105 days to go. 105 days seems long for me. It's not about that I don't like this place or not happy with it. In fact, I love this place, i love the work... But, I need a break. A holiday that I won't need to think of study and work. I miss home too, there's a lot of things that I only get to realize when I was out here.

I wanna go home! But in the other way, there's people that I need to face in person when I was back. I don't know how to handle that. Sometimes, i think people should deserve a second chance. But, I doubt if it's easy to make a change. There's once that I actually make up my mind to give you a chance, but some other people just mess up my decision. Maybe i should just see how it goes. I'll consider it carefully all over again.

I guess I grumble a lot. But no worries, I just wanna say what I feel... I'm alright again after that, fit enough to go on! I'm not invincible, but you won't be able to figure out how strong could I be. I cry like a little girl all the time, but I wipe off my tears and go on again=)

Love you all back there <3 <3 <3

Hmm... I've been really tired recently. Lots of things could happen, people just came in and out of my life. Don't go just as you like, don't invade just as you feel like. I just don't know what happen all in a sudden. Being honest, i do hate this person in some way, just don't know the way of him trying to get into my life.

But I think I was kind of being stereotyping, and I knew I wasn't being nice to you. I'm sorry about that, I'm treating you like I did to everyone now. Just like what I said, everyone deserve a second chance, and I'm sure you do. But the final decision was still up to you. You might have your own way of living a better life.

I just don't know why, I thought I won't, but I realize that I do care about what you said. I feel sorry for not facing some of the matter in the first place. But I hope you understand that I wasn't being nice, but I think i do care what you said, for whatever reason it is. I seriously don't know. Thanks a lot for being honest to me, I appreciate it, at least you know what's the problem.

I just don't feel like thinking so much. All of my time just gone like I never knew. I knew I'll sort it out someday later.

在我们的现实生活中，我们不停的引用着如果，可是有多少的如果会实现，有多少的如果能回头，有多少的如果是事实，又有多少的如果是能够兑现的呢？我承认，我讨厌自己的悲观。我宁愿想得最坏，也不愿意往好的一方面想，也许没有信心，可是希望越大，失望越大。

在这里的日子，一个人的时候，想得特别多。在想，原来来了这里，我也放弃了不少东西。放弃了原有的可能性，也许我不够坚强，战斗纠缠不下去，所以我选择放弃离开。现在回头再看时，原来一切都只是习惯，，习惯了有这么一个人一直在身旁。我不否认自己变了许多，成熟了，不再是大家以前说的大小姐了，独立了，可是还是如以前那么固执，爱哭...

我的坚强也很快就用完了，惟有把自己弄得很累才不会想很多。就因为把自己逼得太紧，所以坚强不起来，累了就只能用泪水来发泄。有些事情，我不会说出口，也说不出口，逼我只会让我离你更远。

现在什么都不想，只是想要某些事情一直都没改变。过去的很想忘了，可是有些事情，忘不了，因为那曾经是习惯。

PS：12月要回家了，拭目以待我那怪怪的华文吧！我自己也受不了...

Hey there, it’s been ages since I last update my blog… Sorry guys! I know it was like 3 months ago that I last updated my blog. I’m putting myself in trouble now as I’ve got so many things to write. There are heaps of things that are happening in these 3 months. Hmm, a short period that was fully of joy and laughter together with some tears.

On the month of May, it was just all about eating, studying and working. Not to forgot about my dearest friend, Debrah’s birthday. I bought her 4 cupcakes that were specially made! We planned to give her a surprise, and we knew she won’t fell into our trap so easily. So I ended up telling lie that there was spider in my room, acting like I’m so scared! (I’m actually scared that she won’t be bothering me) Haha! But I got you Debrah! It wasn’t a big spider, but more them 10 of them hiding in my room with a birthday cake=) we hope you really like the surprise girl.

When it comes to the month of June, it wasn’t fun anymore but full of hard work and tears. It’s time to get serious when the A & P topic began. It comes with few hundred pages of learning guide and 10 assessment essays. Not to forget the 4 test with the passing mark of 70%. It wasn’t the matter of easy or difficult but about how much time would you have to deal with all of these. You would really want to cry if you’re working from Saturday to Tuesday and test on 9 topic of Anatomy and Physiology on Wednesday morning. I’ve used up all the spare time including break time during work and extra time when waiting for bus to study, but there’s no way to finish all of that. It just wasn’t the matter about whether I’m working hard enough, somehow I wish I had 48 hours in that day. I couldn’t help but was kind of frustrated with myself for not meeting my own expectation. Seriously, I hardly have extra time to really sleep. Honestly, I haven’t got time to watch any movie or drama for a couple of months already.

On the last day of our 2nd term, we went to celebrate at the Korean restaurant, it was good but missing a couple of them. It was a day full of laughter and crazy act, we was like the attention to everyone passing by. The “but but car” song really make me laugh till sitting on the floor. Oh god! Please don’t sing that at the bus stop again next time, I feel so embarrassed when people keep looking at me while I can’t stop laughing sitting on the floor. Anyway, D12! There it goes our second semester, good luck for the upcoming one!

I guess that was too much for me, and there’s no way for me to get home this holiday. So, I had a short getaway to Melbourne for 4 days 3 nights with Debrah. It was great! There’s nothing much to worry about and get away from work. Melbourne was totally different from Adelaide, lots of Asians, really a CBD! The first lunch we had there was at Old Town, Ohh! I really miss that! Something that shouldn’t be left out was Starbucks Green Tea latte and EASY WAY! I miss that DAMN much! Eating that kind of food makes me feel like I was home. Seriously, studying in Melbourne was still like back in home. You could just find everything there. Anyway, I still prefer Adelaide, it’s peaceful and less hectic. The hustle and bustle of Melbourne was not a good place for studying with lots of entertainment.

I went to Philip Island, Churchill Island, Harbour Town, Chinatown, Southern Cross and just basically walking around the city. It was a holiday, so I spent some time on exercising, doing spa and sauna in the hotel. It was really relaxing! Time that you enjoy always pass by like lightning, short but precious and memorable. I met up with one of the ex- classmate as well, talk a lot about our friends and class. That makes me feel like going home. After all, my secondary school life was really memorable with all the happening events.

Well, after the trip it was time to work hard again. Think a lot during that period, there’s something that I should probably give up and stop dragging. It’s tiring. So, just leave that aside. I was sick last week, with sore throat, cough, flu and headache. I knew I need some rest but I need to finish my assignment before it due. So I end up sleeping at 5am for 4 days consecutively to finish my work. I had another sleepless night after that as I work night shift, from 11pm till quarter past seven in the morning. It was crazy and tiring! But it’s time to rest to get well=) I’m alright now, getting better. I’m trying to sleep like a pig now, 12 hours in a day, handing up the assignment was like such a huge relieve. All I need to worry now is about work, will be working everyday this week. I’ve done my performance appraisal today, it was good but just need to attend some extra education session that was optional. I got to stop here, otherwise I won’t be finishing until tomorrow morning! Miss you all, take care=)

I couldn't think of any reason, but just simply not tired tonight. I'm working in the afternoon tomorrow, that's great as I doesn't need to wake up early anymore. Life has been tiring like always, work and study.

I've been to the city for some groceries shopping and bought myself some books to study during leisure time. I haven't done much things recently, spend most of my precious time on work, assignment, books and phone. Haha=) There's always someone that cheer me up!

Without realizing, it's gonna be May on next Sat. It means that I'm here for nearly 8 mths, I couldn't believe that! I knew I've been a bit late to realize people that was beside me and guide me through all the way, but thanks a lot! I do learned a lot throughout this period, appreciate what we have and don't judge people according to their appearance.

My life journey was a long way to go, don't ask me if I'm gonna go back in the future or stay here. I don't have the answer, please don't make any assumption as mind will change accordingly with maturity as i grow. I'm working hard on my English now to get band 7 or better in all the 4 categories of IELTS!

I'm sorry that I wouldn't have the time to update my blog frequently. There's lots things I've miss out and need to be sacrifies. I'm really looking forward to go home during this year end, probably gonna get my schedule in the coming June.

~Disappointments are like road bumps, they slow you down a bit but you will enjoy the smooth road afterwards. Don't stay on the bumps too long but MOVE ON!!~

I'm nearly there, just two more days to go and I'll get a day off on Monday! My mission was nearly complete, I've been trying to be strong and get this through. Gonna release all the stress and tension I've got throughout this 2 weeks. Well, I did learn a lot and things are getting harder. I've been enjoying the time with those residents, it's a happy things when they do remember you all the time. Have been really tired for this period, been sleeping early at around 10.30pm, that wasn't like me at all! Haha...

Oh yeah! I'm gonna have a marvelous day when day off. Gonna get myself something nice as a reward of working hard. Probably gonna have lunch and dinner out there, trying with all kind of western food now, not gonna have asian food since I'm having it in Hosanna.

Well, there is always something that you do have to give up all the time, it's not possible to have everything. I'm not giving up about that, but let it go with fate and the time will decide.

I've been too busy to update what's been going on since I've started with my work. Lots stuff that I have done, such as been to the Malaysian Cuisine restaurant, Adelaide Northern Light and to Hog's breath cafe on the last day of the 1st semester. Hmm... I haven't got the time to upload those lovely photos. Having a early shift at 7am tomorrow up to quarter to four, and an afternoon shift on Sunday.

I'll definitely get some time to do that...Hehe, I'm just praying that I'll have a good day for the next 2 days! Crossed fingers=) Hmm... I'm missing someone at the moment, when should I call you?

首先当然恭喜李宗伟成为全英王咯！大家总算盼望到今天了，我一直相信只要不放弃，总会有成功的一天！从2003年第一局就遭受淘汰，一直走到今天的全英百届王，泪水和汗水是无法衡量的。他永远是我的英雄！其实一直都没办法真的看他打球，这里没有直播，就只能看livescore。可是时差的关系在加上最近忙碌的自己，真的撑不了。上课加上工作，真的很累人！现在整个人真的是紧绷了，好想大哭发泄发泄呢！

Could you save me? I'm stuck in here... Whatever i can do was just stay here and keep working hard! It's tiring... Really tiring! Well, the hero is back home, you are back home, everyone is back at home, when is my turn? Whatever it is, I really need a break, but I can't afford my life! So what can i do? Just gonna bare with it.

Well... Just ignore me anyway, just trying to relieve some stress. No matter how much laughter it doesn't really works to cheer me up. Just wish to drop down on the bed and sleep for a week! But honestly, I really wanna go home, at least to a place that I could have a rest and keep assignment and work away!

You won't know how it feels like when everyone arounds you get the chance to go back and you are there waiting for a unknown holiday. It's not the matter how life is over here, it is just that you really wanna go home for that shelter that you could actually forget about everything and have a good rest and some good food instead of the chicken!!!

Anyway, I'll be fine again tomorrow, that's me! Life is always tiring and that is what it should be. Nothing much you could do but keep yourself strong all the time, I know I can! No matter what, just hold on tight, there is always someone that inspire me to hang on for another moment!

Hmm…发觉自己不再有那么多的时间写下自己心里头的感觉了，不知不觉，在这里也接近半年了，真是光阴似剑，时光如梭…现在进入了工作和读书并和的时候，老实说真的不容易，可是我知道自己会坚持，因为这条路是我选的，也清楚自己想要的是什么。

还有个星期我就在这里半年了，其实在这段时间里我都不曾真的放假，半年里头就只有2个星期吧！所以有时候觉得好累，即使是来临有两个星期的放假，但是还是想努力工作赚钱。其实我喜欢也享受这份工作，看见老人家们过得开心，自己也会很安慰。有时候看见他们那样子，也会心疼。

其实真的好想家哦！当大家都聚在一起但却少了我时，真的好难过。在这么遥远的我，却不能在当下和你们分享喜悦。听见朋友们来来回回的回了家几趟，真的不禁在想，何时才轮到我。二月份要结束了，表示我还有大约9个月的时间应该就有机会回家了。所以我誓言要好好赚钱，以自己的能力付生活费，自己买机票回家，花自己的钱。爸妈为我付出的真的很多了，我今年也真的18了，该靠自己了吧！想好好报答他们，用自己的能力让他们来澳洲旅行。

其实如果没有家人，好多难关我真的不晓得自己能否熬下去，我只能说是眼泪伴随我成长。当我发现自己不再有那么多依靠时，真的一夜间成长了，很多事情即使是不晓得也要放2百个心跳去尝试。

我很庆幸自己今天能走到这里，如果当初的我没有坚持，今天的我或许还没成长，或许真的后悔了。

Hey, Happy Chinese New Year guys... Well, I'm somewhere else for Chinese New Year this year, didn't manage to go back to my hometown. For the first time, things was so different. Seriously, I have the feeling of being left out by everyone back there, i couldn't share the joy and the moment you guys have there.

I tried... Try to catch up with things, but it's just impossible. I understand things, and yeah, that's fine. Seriously, can't believe that i was here for nearly half a year already. Someone said that nothing is impossible with determination, if there's dedication, I could accomplish anything. At least this give me some motivation.

Have been really tiring these days, didn't manage to sleep well. I think i need a rest, but there's still way to go before I could actually rest. Too much things to worry, stress+ tension= tears
Pillow gonna wet again tonight=.=

Things gonna start all over again, in a brand new environment! I'm looking forward for that but really need to cope well with it. Well, at least i accomplish one of my other mission again this time. Just gonna hold on tight and get through it!

It's a long way to go again before i could go home. Apparently, another 10 months to go. And yet, i don't even know when is the date. Just realize that if you have faith on things, it's gonna come true. Pray hard, try your best and you'll be alright. Don't blame anything, go on with your life no matter how it is. Hmm... I really hope someone will bring me home>.<

我也很长一段时间没有用华文写部落格了，突然有种冲动想要写下目前的心情。感觉华文退步了好多…不晓得怎么了，可是最近的我好累，心情都蛮低落，也好想回家。有些事情，当自己拥有时，总不晓得他有多珍贵，失去时才懂得他的重要性。

不晓得怎么说，人类就老是爱把事情复杂化，所以人生才那么累人。在短短的时间内，真的能够发生很多事情。所以我常说，无论你有多坚强，还是会有用完的一天。面对需要勇气，逃避总是解决不了事情。

以前的我，很想要自由，现在的我有了自由，但我很想家。人永远都在追求不同的东西，其实知足才能活得更轻松开心。当然，目标不能少，只是必须懂得满足。我知道自己想太多，顾虑太多，所以压力总是很大。也知道妈妈不停的担心总是把自己逼得很紧的我，担心压力会影响我的健康。对不起，总是让你们担心！有时很努力的忍着，可是眼泪还是掉了下来。身旁的人不停的询问我几时回家，当下的我真的都在想，大家都回去了，何时才到我？也许过去的我不曾对爸妈说过我爱你们，可是来了这里，发觉自己长大了，发现很多自己不曾察觉的事，家人永远都排第一！

无论发生什么事，日子还是要过，唯有往前看…可是我好像还有着重量的包袱！

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I’m back! Well… I’m sorry for not updating my blog. I’ve abandoned it for quite a while. This is my 200th post, at last i reach 200, such a long way!Just too much things happened recently, don’t really have the time to write something. I’m just gotta briefly describe how is it.

22Dec09
It’s the day to eat glutinous rice ball, it seems like impossible to get it in Adelaide. But really thanks to Caroline, Debrah and Li Qun for putting the effort to make it on their own. It’s special when you get to eat something that was way back from home. That’s really nice^^
24Dec09
Merry Christmas! It should be Christmas Eve, but Australian celebrates Christmas on this day. I don’t really celebrate Christmas way back at home but I love the feeling of Christmas. Hmm… We have Christmas dinner at Hosanna, lot’s yummy stuff to eat. It’s the carolling session after the dinner. Everyone enjoy the night very much!

31Dec09
It’s the last day of 2009, can’t really believe that. When I look back for the year of 2009, the most memorable moment was when I’m working in Japan Boat for about 7 months. Hey, I love you guys so much! That will be the moment that I wouldn’t want to forget in my life time. I do enjoy the time there! I’m glad to know you guys and always keep in touch now and then.
Besides that, I spent the other time with my family in KK, Penang and KL. While the rest was my life in Aussie. Nothing much that could describe in words, but I know it’s the beginning and the turning point of my life.

I join the countdown with the rest of my friend that day, there’s 10++ of us. It is my first new year in Adelaide, I have all sort kind of feelings. Miss home, excited for a new year, looking forward for another threshold and etc. It’s kind of weird actually, keep on questioning myself how nice if I’m with my family.

I have to admit, I never thought I’ll miss home that much before I was here. It takes time to realise how much does your family means to you. No matter what happened they will always at your back and never let you down. I love you guys!

1Jan10
I got a new room for myself, I think it will be better in this way. No carpet so that it won’t cause much allergy problems for me. It’s alright even though there’s no sink, I got a bigger space, and double bed.
14Jan10
I went for Ice Skating with Caroline, Debrah and Li Qun. I really have fun on that. It’s been quite a long time since I really have fun, from the inner of my heart. Jie jie, now I get what you mean that you think ice skating was fun. If there’s a chance, I hope that the 4 of us will go back there again.


Basically, most of the time I was just doing assignment, watch movie, and go to city or library. I have to practice healthy lifestyle now. Need to go for a walk in the park early in the morning once in a while, sleep and wake up early! I have no idea how much movie I have watch, about 4-5 in a week, can’t really remember what I’ve watch. But I’m in love with Nicholas Sparks, his novels was remarkable. I’ve watch The Notebook, Nights in Rodanthe and A Walk to Remember. All of that make me cry.

I’ve been watching some movie that was to with dancing lately, it really makes me miss dancing! Dancing used to be the way that I could express myself and relieve stress. I really miss those moments that I could dance freely on the stage… Well, I don’t think I have the chance anymore. Just got to enjoy the show.

Hmm… Nothing is impossible, it’s really true! Just want to concentrate on study now, and pray hard that I could get a job as soon as possible. Joining D12 tomorrow, I hope that everything will be fine.